okay...today,no fancy colours or wat..juz black n simply black..
let me start with the early mornin..


performance by the technical class..awesome music.it was nyce..especially the song im yours by jason mraz..it was good...good job guys!*around of applause*


this simply means dat ive gt no issue with tech students..they have been great guys..yes!xcept for some ppl who keeps demoralising himself by sayin,"i noe im from tech n im stupid"
lyk wat the hey?!no one says dat..he is the one who repeats it over n over again till my ears get so disgusted by it..well riyan did say dat pass/fail he still ends up at the same place..well it is the fact wat..but then if u work hard after entering ITE,u can succeed wat..juz lyk kum fai*salutes*..u juz didnt take dat positively coz u oni thinks of finding our faults to start a new arguement besides the unit problems..coz eventually u lose to the arguements on how ur atitude problems n how u treated us n ur cadets lyk ur dogs...

i pity faizah alot..she is sucha great help to u but hell,it looks lyk shes gt no equal rank with u..n noe wat?we treat each other like our brothers n sisters..but you?treat us like ure god n we are to listen to ur loud iritating voice n listen to ur shitty commands..u treat us lyk we are cadets..hell we are ur specs(if u still realise that)..i tink u r juz too obsessed with ur master seargent rank whch is lyk equivalent to wat faizah has sewn on her sleeves?or maybe dats the only achievement that uve got in ur life.well congrats if dat is so..but then,u misuse ur achievement..u even blame me for ur change?wat the hey?!after all of ur,"fine..it is all my fault..i'll take all the blame"u end it by saying u changed bcoz of me..arent u simply blaming me?gosh!when i tell u not to involve personal matters in,u instantly say u didnt..but u juz did..u gt a problem with remembering words u haf said?n he is the one who said wanna settle all this shit..but he doesnt seem so..

he started off by increasing his voice whch all of us are nt even tinny winny bit scared of..so he make me blow..ive gt atitude problems too!wow..but mostly expressed on u!coz im fcking pissed off onli wif u..i dunnoe y is dat so..maeby bcoz we did shared sweet memories in the past n wif the way u treat me now is hurting me or wat..i dunnoe..watever it is..im juz pissed off wif u..alot!i didnt ask u to change.i even told u dat we can b good frens aftr the breakup.n i meant it..but u seems not to accept the fact..i cant do much abt it..but this is the something whch all of us can do..n noe y?it is to help you!help you realise ur unneccessary change..n get back to the old u..

n when u asked do we realise our mistake..we've gt an answer for u ..yes we did n we realise it..n u asked for an example of our biggest mistake..n another good answer for it..:voting u the USM..biggest mistake.u used to b the dserving USM..but nt animore..wat kind of a head leader which gives up on his own unit?no gossips..u say it..u gave up on the unit..n u even say dat u nt attending the initiation camp..wat the hey..for wat reason u nt attending?n u say its of no use for u to come..is dat wat a leader supose to answer?a LEADER!n i wonder how the TO's can approve to dat reason..imagine if ani of the specs to give dat reason to u..would u accept it?u tink u r the head leader u can just leave n come as n when u like?

n even blame us for nt havin the initiative to inform him dat the training is dismissed..well at the ferst place,do u even took the initiative to even walk a few steps into the searoom n inform us dat u r goin for a 'meeting'?do u?!u r nt even there for the whole training..n we as usual,lyk ur dogs..haf to come with a plan on wat to do..but hell yeah,u can ask the cadets how fun the training is..WITHOUT YOU!we atleast joined them thruout the whole training..when u?out of sight for the whole lyk 3 hours?wat meeting is dat?or u juz letting out ur anger somewhere else..or even scared to face us all..i dunnoe n i dun care..

back to today's event..so he eventually keep telling us to shut up when we need to give comments..n hey,i m veri particular abt ppl pointing their finger to me n askin me to shut up..so yea,u get the hell of me..its my bloody fcking mouth n its nt ur bloody fcking father skewl whch u can ask me to leave as n when u lyk..its nt gonna happen to dis girl..n i was gonna get more physical then verbal until an angel maybe on ur side came n he cooled me down..dat was a help..he gt a class goin on..u r lucky boy!n u cant even take the painful words delivered by riyan whch is in a nice tone..he is nt even shouting n u can get pissed off..so yea..the power of voice does nt help u in this case.. i can say dat thruout these years,ppl are inches afraid of u onli bcoz of ur voice..without ur voice,u wont get respected izit?is dat ur defination of gettin respect?

n he complained abt riyan n brian's atitutde?watthe hey?if its abt the blog post..i tell u...go do a blog lets see how u would express wat u feel in it..freedom in blogpost mayn..our blog,our say..u dun lyk it?then y bother to check it out..n i can say dat u cant make a decision on ur own!always seeking help from the seniors in almost evrithng..better make the seniors the leader ryt.well im nt blaming the seniors for his actions..they arent to blame coz dats their job..help when theres problem..but cant u lyk juz sit n think on ur own for once?or even tink wif us...big talk from a small man..

n u say dat my way of talking is quite unlikeable..im so pissed off wif dat..this new ma'am dunnoe me or wat n now shes trying to judge me..n the usm is oso the same..i noe i dun grow up in a veri decent family lyk u do..we talk in our way of comfortibility..we curse n stuffs..if my way of talking doesnt suit her or u,then i can say "fcuk off n go die!"dats my way..atleast im nt changin for/bcoz of someone!im me..thru my way of talking i still haf frens..but u?surrounded by enemies n "frens".....n hey,anione in this werld never talkcork before?slap their head ah!i usually talk cork during trainings coz its a way for us to haf fun..dis is our ncc life since sec1..we are used to crapping...n suddenly dis 3 new TO's comes into the happy,strong,bonded, full of traditions,crapping unit n evrithng turns upside down..theres always anger in evri trainings..we r bcomin weaker as there is alot of things we cannt do animore..the unit not getting together coz our request for an excursion or outing or bonding leisure camp is not approved...n lastly,they break alot of our traditions makin us lyk a crappy unit sinking n not rising...n it is all abt BUC...whch we cant achieve when they break our secret traditions whch makes us a strong unit previously...

to end the topic about dis:i noe wat we've said to u juz now was fcking hurtful n painful..but we tink dat u dserve it n its the oni way to make u realise ur mistake..we wanna settle it but u juz didnt wan to do so.wat more can we do then?after all we are juz ur slavery specialists..n hey,dis girl is telling u to stop ur nonsense..n dun threaten people by sayin ,'watch out'....coz its not gonna werk...but hey,kiter ade cara...at one point of tym,i myself will throw the ego in me n ask for forgiveness from u..but dat tym's oni gonna come when i tink ddat u dserve it..for now im juz gonna say,stop ur iritating attention seeking actions n atitude..


n i gotta say dat i felt a sudden thing happening when u say u changed bcoz of me...i dunnoe wats the feeling upon hearing dat..but dat lasted for a moment..coz im juz too strong for u to make me breakdown again...no more..never...as ive said,life is unpredictable..the person i love the most previously turns out to b my biggest enemy for now..never expected it to happen..



next event:frisbee!
friday is sports carnival @ republic polytechnic sports hall..so after the arguements all,we played frisbee..hahah..u all never see dat side of me before ryt?hahah..chill...way to go Q!i noe u all will b wishing dat u r in my shoes n shouting at him ryt...make u all shocked huh?i noe dis side of mine is hidden by my prolong smiles n laughters..it is better dat u all noe me the cheerful part rather than the volcanoic part...i dun lyk dat..heehee...sports is medicine!i like..healthy living too....friday mr vale gonna treat lunch @ seoul garden!heehee..looking forward to fridY!


TOMOROW!:PTM
i failed veri badly..n juz now mrs heng called me,shaykh,n syafiq to the front..she told us dat our parents nidda come tmrw..its not compulsory for all students..but ffor us its a MUST!urgh!i tink im juz gonna ask my sis to come down...my mum shudnt noe abt it...haiz...O level malay paper is next week monday!6 more days..im scared...




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