chOC addictOr !!!

2011-03-03T06:44:00.002+08:00

went to work as usual...
bored..tired..feeling weak still..
argh.!!
didnt talk much nowadays..

went home..abb qash came..
ate with him chilli crab which ibu cooked..
sit down..chat2...
ibu story2..
laugh2...till 3am.
sat outside with him..played lappy..listen to songs..
then ard 4am get home..
played internet till now..
time check:6:49am..
nice...tmrw off..can sleep late..never sleep also can..

oh yes i need a second chance..just a goddamn second chance..
after i saw somethings on facebook,i reaally feel that i want n need the second chance
badly...oouuuhhhmmyyygooddd...please make my heart stronger..
i know i am stronger than this..
yes i am...just miss some people or to be exact someone..

hello again.!

2011-03-02T02:29:00.003+08:00

hello people.!
ooh....its dusty in here..my blog got alot of dust huh?
i guess dis is the first post for 2011...hahaha
sad or wat..march then i post..
hahahha....

hmm..let me try to recall january first..
hmm...my uncle passed away..
it has not been a good month..cause i remember how i used to curse 2011 as a bad year...

february...things started changing again..
it becomes better...bit by bit..
had our family chalet...n had lots of fun...hahahah..
work wise..it was damn tiring month..because of chinese new year...
we work like dogs...dogs also never work like dat...
all become like zombie ready...
hahahaha...n problem wise..alot of things haf been goin on at work..alot..
but nvm..problems make a place more entertaining....

hahah

march....hmm..cant predict much..
end of feb i have been falling sick..really sick..
only lie down in my room almost the whole day..for 4 days..
my brain n body is goin thru massive exhaustion..
i will faint anytime if i were to overwork again..
have started eating my old medicine..the antibiotics...
cause my head started to give problems again..haiz...
my relationship with my family is getting better too..
n it only started when i fall sick again...
they treated me nicely..so nice till i feel so weird..
hahaha..just being paranoid i guess...

n yes i still miss him ... maybe when i say i have moved on it was only me living in denial..
i have never moved on.. there was no one else after him..no one..but as long
as he is happy with the new person,i will be happy for him..

thank god for presenting me a loving family...another loving sister(ekyn mocot) and another loving brother(abb qash)...n a new comer to our family(nurrys bayu azila)...n thank u allah for making me believe that he has better plans ahead for me each day coming.

im fucking back.!

2010-09-01T03:05:00.002+08:00

been SOOOOOOOOOO fucking long since my last update huh..
been busy,.lappy spoil ..haiz,..
so wats happening in my life/?
actually theres alot of things..but then everything seems like normal evriday routine..
it all depends on how my day was bein spent..
i eat sleep work hang around movies n stuffs..
more of my time are spent wif my ph family..actually its majority of my time lah..
i wake up bathe go werk..come home in the morning n sleep..wake up again go werk..dat kindof routine lah..gt to enjoy only on my off day...so dats for wats happening in my evriday life..
lets move one..

hmm....im nt dat contactable with my friends..they are busy with school..n i m busy workin,
they are mostly free on weekends whch i obviously cant have an off day on weekends..
only once or twice in two months?hmm..i miss them so much..veri much..wish we can rewind tym n go back to our school days..it was good tyms..

one of my burden is off..i confessed wat ive been keepin towards him..but then,things still cannot work out..well atleast i noe the answer n will nt feel so tortured keepin sumthng..eventhou deep inside im still waitin,i juz take it dat we r nt meant to b together again..but i dunnoe y sumthng deep inside me keep tellin me to waiit n im still waitin..stupid me ryt..i could juz move oon but i dunnoe y its so hard..maeby bcoz he was my last n my best..treated me so right..its veri easy for anione to say juz move on..tapi kalau da sayang nk buat mcm mane kan.. eventhou dis is lyk a one sided thing , i still accept it..loving someone doesnt need to have any returns ryt..goodness sake i still love him...only god noes..haizz...

werk is great...even thou there r more conflicts n stuffs,there is juz something abt the surroundings n the people who make my evriday life intresting...learnt life lessons from them...those things dat people might tot is rarely happening is actually happening in our social evriday life..n i had my lovely sister there who took me like her own..im thankful for dat..ive gt big brothers and a big sister there who would listen up to my whine n vice versa..i love them alot...sometimes strangers can treat us better than our own blood..i thank god for presenting me with these people when im at my worst state..they are nt influencive juz dat when i wanna do somethng bad they will be thr with me..to take care of me.."nk jahat,jahat same2 jadi kite bole jage kau..kene tangan org laen..bleh salah jalan..." dat is wat they alwaes say..hahahs..its a way of tellin me they wont let me go overboard or do sumthng bad with the wrong people with wrong intentions..i love them.. alot.. they neva fail to put on a smile on my face when im down..or juz say evriday..

my health is nt dat good recently..been easily sick..my headaches startin to kick in again..juz like last tym..my body felt weaker now..i get sick easily n stuffs..i nid to take medicine almost evry nyt..those painkillers whch will juz make me sleep n forget all the pain..and when the next day comes,i will go thru the same routine agaiin by the end of each day.eat medicine n go to sleep..suckish lah..but i m still thankful to god evryday when i open my eyes..it means im still alive n still have time to be spent memorably with my loved ones..evryday is a new beginning n a new mission waiting ahead..

i miss my delta troup..hahaha..the baddest son of bitches..hahahs..i didnt get to go for the meet up session with themm..coz its on a saturday n im werkin..haiyo..they made up alot of good memories during my secondary school life...those stupid things we do together..only we noes how much bad things we've done..n those memories are priceless..juz by talkin abt it again cn make us laugh our butts off remembering how childish n how fun it is last tym..i love it..

totally not forgettin the OOOFVEs...! they came to my life on my senior years.haha..great bunch great people great jokes great tricks great gossips great laughs great memories..we r one crazy bunch ..we will do watever we like as long as it will make us happy..example during the sports carnival..we could even dance crazily in the middle of the field..our bonding was there..i tink dat is wat make us the winner..hahas..we alwaes had dat positive energy..always..!hahaha..i love them..

i realise my mistakes in the past years really affected my life today..if only i could rewind tym,things would be totally diferent,.like totally difrent..karma strikes back real bad ths time..
if only time machine existed for real..i would really wanna go for it..haiz..

ok dats all for now..i dunnoe when my next post is gonna be..will be busy..heehee..
take care people..i love me.i love you.i love them.i love us.i love yours.i love my people..i love him. muax.!

REST IN PEACE.

2010-03-30T01:23:00.000+08:00

my grandmother died 2 days ago. which is on the sunday..
after 3 weeks of suffering with different kind of tubes inserted to her body, finally she had her long rest..
the news was not a big shock or something because everyone see it coming soon..she have no more chances to live.
but it is still something that all children would not want to experience..losing their parents..
and now,i have got no grandparents anymore.. not even one..
i experience one kind of a feeling just now when we are at the cemetry..
i felt sad and scared at the same time,,when this uncle started saying those prayers and giving last advices
to my late grandma.. and when i tried peeking to the 'liang lahad',suddenly i was feeling dizzy..
grabbed my sisters hand and didnt try to do it again.ijust stood near there and reading along the prayers..
everything went smoothly..thank god..may she rest in peace and be placed among the good people in heaven..
amin.

she is being loved by many..a good mother,grandmother,wife and sister..everyone loves her..
and everyone will miss her...
nothing stays in this world.. not a single living thing.

READ IF YOU ARE BORED LIKE ME....WELL,DO YOU EVEN BOTHER?

2010-03-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

im bored...im veri bored..im veri veri veri bored ryt now..
if only i am schooling right now,my days would not be so plain..everyday would be something new..
there will always be something new and to be talked about.. studies,friendships,teachers,politics,emotions..
oh my gosh..i am obviously missing school.. i wish i have homeworks now so it will fill up my empty time..
i want that busy pressured stressed till you cry life back again.. can i?i wish i can..atleast back then i have everone..
i have my friends.my bitches.my seniors.my juniors.my specialist.my cadets.my crush.my teachers.my enemies.n family.
but where do everyone go now?yes i still have my friends.but not everyday like last time where i can meet them evryday..i rarely meet ,talk or even sms with them. only when there is something coming up or someone need something or we are just plain bored then we will start talking.n that will only last like how long?hours?or maeby 2 days only..or even minutes.. that is how distanced i am from them.those people who used to be there for me everyday..
i want my ncc life back again..as a cadet..where we were being tortured like we are just a piece of shit..it is fun .. it makes us looks like fools but that is how we gain our strength from.. a cadet is far more stronger than a specialist..a specialist is just a senior who have more experience and knowledge..i want be in the platoon that have always been in the shit n sweats with me..i want to go gunung ayam again with my platton mates..it is the most precious thing that i would remember..i want to go through initiation camp again with them..because there is alot of drama which happen in real life and we happened to plan everthing out..it was funny shit..
i want to have a weekend job like last time..eventhough as a dishwasher for weddings..atleast i get to meet my crush every weekends..joke around ,annoy, tease,laugh with each other..n also sing together.i still remember the first song which break the ice..its "i wanna hold your hand"..an old school song..hahha..it was fun back then.having cash every weekends..and going for dinner as a group after work.but now,since something happened,we have not been going to work as a dishwasher every weekend..n yes if my sister happens to read this..yes,its true..i do have a big crush on zul..remember he is the chris brown and i am rihanna..it was crazy..but that was back then..i still do talk to him at times but not as often as last time..cause there is nothing much going on in my life...and i do not have much to talk about with everyone..EVERYONE.
i want to have my teachers back in my everyday life..they are the awesome-est strangers in my life..
they did try their best to make me learn something eventhough i am quite problematic with attendance back then..they still do not give up on me..i appreciate their efforts trying to get near us n treating us like their children..pampering us..it was veri sweet of them..i still remember mr row's convo with me on the phone.."can you come to school tomorrow?"...."okay,do it atleast for me..i have not seen you for a long time.."..."the whole class miss your presence here"...that actually made me come to school the next day and the whole week..i swear..which other teachers would do that?and the other teachers such as mdm hartini and mr vale and ms sor n ms shobha also filled up a certain area in my heart okay..they are the sweetest teacher..
i love going to school and seeing my enemies..enemies actually made my school life more interesting..without enemies,there will be no climax...and i remember me eeza n mus beating up maggie..it was memorable ..and during the early part of 2009 we are so fanatic..and as if everyday we go and solve problems for other people..nothing to do ..it was veri fun.and in the end.i can say those enemies actually became friends of mine..atleast we are not in bad terms anymore..atleast..
i want to turn back time again if i can and change everything..since secondary 1..i should have socialised more and get to know more good people in life..eventhough they are naughty people,sometimes they can be the best person in your life.and if i can turn back time..i would actually try to hold my relationship with haziq till now and in the future too just like what we used to promise back then..but promises are meant to be broken is it?he is a nice guy..he may be a little bit over protective but that is because he care..i became uncomfortable with that extra care since i do not like to be overly protected..but then if only we could sit down and talk really really nicely and not mistook what each other is trying to convey,we would actually stand till now..i am very very sure..but what to do?yes i admit i still miss him and i want him back but it is not going to happen..how can i prove that i still have feelings for him?in thousands of people i knew,why i always miss him?and why do i still feel jealous when he treat another girl extra special?and why do my heart skip a beat when i talk to him? i see changes in him and he is way much better now..maeby he is happy with his life or even with someone else..i would not ever ever be selfish and snatch that happiness away from him..he have helped and done alot for me..iappreciate and really thankfull for that..
all i can say my mistakes which i have done in the past..or should i say last year and last two years have actually changed my life..i am school-less right now..i am single and missing him always.. i am bored with doing the same thing all the time at work..workplace which used to be so homely has turned to be a bitch to me eversince that new boss came..i even got sacked on saturday..but i got the job again and working tomorrow..but seriously,work will not be that fun after this..
and lastly,,family?hmm..i do not know how to describe it right now..from my point of view,it is okay.. i am kind of comfortable with the way it is now..but to the others point of view,they keep complaining about how ALL of us not having time for each other anymore..dad cominghome around midnight everyday and leaving for work in the morning before everyone wakes up..mum keeps complaining to me about everyone's atitude towards her everyday..liike what am i suppose to do?i am even the youngest here for goodness sake.dont the older ones have brains to think better than me?my first sis as not been in contact for around 1 month.2nd sis has been going out everyday with her husband.3rd sis started working and it has made a bit impact..4th sis working at somewhere not halal and my mum nagging about it to me..and her atitude which is going down the drain to some peoples eyes..everything is being put on my shoulder..am i the oldest one here?hell no..! everyday she will keep telling me she is so stressed about my dad which is not in talking terms with her,my sis being rude to her everyday,being lonely at home.and alot more stuffs..and i am getting nagged at for someone's else's fault..so who should be more stressed here?no school.. a job with small pay and have to support herself and pampering her mum with her pay and in the end i am left with nothing.. isnt it better when there is lesser people at home?so peaceful..difrent people diferent points of view..
whatever it is..i am bored rotting at home..and that explains this lengthy post of mine.ok i am tired now..finally can rest.okay bye.take care earthlings..

BALING!!!

2010-03-21T02:53:00.000+08:00

juz came back home aftr 1 week of camp..
hahahha...
i had lots of fun during this whole week....n i really2 meant it ah..
from monday ahem ahem,,,oni those ppl noe..
to tuesday with backbone aching n still haf to werk with no sleep...
i swear my eyes da koyak sials..at werk i was staring at certain thngs alot of tyms..
coz im fcking sleepy n lazy to move my eyes..hahah..then reached skewl ard 1 am..
oxygen time with dina.. then didnt sleep till 5am..aftr 5am then i cnnt tahan readi..
pengsan rabak giler kebabian nyer...summore we haf our veri own built tent with two fucking
big n comfy high-jump mattress combined together..so slept thr till ard 12 plus..hahha..nidda get my power sleep mah..if nt the next few days im gnna be sick..o
on wednesday break camp for a/b camp...so we slack till 6pm..
the specs n haziq n me did sumthng really risky n crzay...but its funn...hahaha..
at nyt ard 12am we go out..planned to go sembwng park.but half thru walking the cnnector,
we darn lazy readi..so we juz exit the coffeshop lane n walk alll the way to northpoint's macd..slack thr..play the pig game.. n gt one apek yg tido air liur meleleh pat dlm dgn tiket
4d infrnt of him..so we disturb him ah..we write 4 number on a paper n say lucky 4d number.then we put on his table...so we make xtra noise to wake him up..n BALING!
hahahha...blah blah blah..we do it for th second tym.. then we slack outside ... n i swear evrione's eyes damn red readi...faishol ah 30 secs gone case..abeh tido senyom..
then ard 4 plus we made our way back to skewl..reached ard 5 10am..then the gate nt open.n we do nt wanna climb..so evrione lepak ryt outside the gate..n hell we juz lie down outside the gate..at the road entrancew thr..mcm org mabok..then 5 30 am gate open..evrione rushed to the tentage n slept in a pooof!sume juz squeeze in je..tangan kenmane kepale kemane..woke up at 11am..played in the rain wif dina..haha n then we bathe together n flood the toilet..lack of childhood sia.. then initiation start n hell start for the charlie..yay! i love sadism..! they gt tortured oni on the second day..ferst day soo relaxed..n i rmmber their faces when they eat biscuits wif marmite n saltwater,,hahaha..classic sial..smpai muntah lah...wth..dramamama sials..
then they receive more hell n hell. after dat i go werk on friday nyt..aku da pnat giler kebabian siak..reach skewl ard 1 am again..then talk2 wif kum fai haziq n nurra n afai n kim..2 am they all sleep.i continue layan si kum fai talk2..smpaii 2 30am.n evrione nidda wake up at 3am..so without sleep again the whole 2 days..proceed to sembawang connector for solo walk..its nt dat dark lah..coz gt moonlight..but still,,its dark enuff to make u haf the chills ...n evrithng ends at ard 6 plus in the morning..then they walk back..n my toes got bubble blisters...long tym neva wear no 4 bootmah.so cut short..finish evrithng. had lunch wif the specs n nurra n haziq n kum fai at np.. reach home ard 1pm...slept all the way till................................................................................
6 50pm(SO HERE STARTS THE STORY WHICH PISSED ME OFF)
i woke up n started panicking coz i worked at 6pm..supposed to..
nt wanting to paitao my werkmates,i called oulet n told the manager dat i will b coming asap..n he said yes..so lincah kadok nye mandi siap..n i walk damn fast noe till sweat..then reach outlet ard 720 pm..n guess wat..my manager said sorie n told me the new boss asked me to go home
n dun come for werk animore..i was fcking pissed off lah kn..so i accidentally scolded my manager..pity him..its nt his fault...he wan me to werk.but the boss dun wan..so i was cursing n cursing dat boss saying all sorts of thngs ah..i wished he was dead when he was come for 9 days a few years back...bapak anjeng btol..n the issue dat pissed me off more is dier nk sack aku ngan kakak aku dgn cara tk swee siall...bella tk buat apape ehk..he deleted our names from the schedule readi..cibai..mother fucking son of a bitch..n he really dun lyk us wat...coz kiter tk suker dgr ckp dier yg mereypek tu..n he even planned to sack me n kak bella readi..he stupid go tell one of the crew n she tell us abt it..tup tup tup,a few says after dat da kene sack.cibai ah..aku ngan kakak aku keje record baek siol...tk paitao2 eh...the weird thing is he is keeping the ones yg kaki paitao abesnyer...pukimak kan prangai..?mintak kene sound siak..tkper2..later in the morning me n bella gnna mit him n ask him the situation..ade chan die sat sat bebual,aku bukak ah aku peh vulgars dictionary..true colours ah siol..aku kn slamer nie budak baek.. aku baek pat sumer orgtk semestinye kau bleh pijak aku anitym eh doggy..sini meh aku BALING kepale kau...BALING!

santan tan terselit.salah selit salah selit
;lepas digoda,dia kena petir..
;setahun digoda,misai da pendek!
BALING!

2010-02-13T02:36:00.002+08:00

okay like finally im updating again...hahahha...

so lets refresh abit of things behind there...

ferst stop.

1.on 2nd feb 2010, a new boy caame into the family..he is named farish shafiq(check spelling error)...veri veri qute n handsome little boy..n he is heavy..hahaha..i love hhim lah!but i still love fasha more..!

2.early dis week i was soo pissed off coz im bored...most of the days im rotting at home..hahahx..

3.on 10th feb,we celebrated mum's birthday...48th birthday(hell she dun look lyk one)...!

bought cake n ate dinner together outside..n on the same day itself is zul's 20th bdae...wished..!

4.thursday worked..

5.12th feb,the delta 09 gave fikri an advance bdae celebration...his bdae falls on the 14th feb,valentines cum cny..it feels good to come together again..but its nt a full strength..as usual,lots of stupid but funny things happened..aftr dat me haziq n fik went to watch valentines day movie..the movie was okay lah.hav strong n weak parts..but it was okay lah..get it?okay....

6.my results of posting for skewl at ite will be on 18 feb.. i juz hope i will get into any course atleast..i nid a skewl in order to go for 59th intake..

7.59th intake? i dunnoe..my hope to go for dat course is lyk 50-50 readi...

8.i miss people..those who made me laugh even once...i miss them..i miss him..i dunnoe y but this feelings is still nt fading away..yet..

dats all ive gt to write..urgh..ive gt nth much to say lah ... actuallie i kindof forgt oso n obviousli lazy...lets end it of wif wishes...!!!!!!!!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL...!AND HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.

dis is written in advance coz i will haf a busy 4 werking days of chinese new year ...n obviously i will b lazy to update my blog..and i personally think dat any other festive day lyk hari raya or or deepavali n chinese new year shud nt collide wif valentines day..i find it iritating..nt bein racist here..but 2 celebrations in one day?not cool for me..and no valentine dis year juz lyk last year...i guess my valentine(s) would b my werkmates which majority of them are singles...nyce one ah..last year wif SMIQA..dis year wif the PH.

Much love,

Nur Quraisha

january..

2010-01-31T02:40:00.004+08:00

tym for some updates...

woah..its been one month since i last update ah..

impressive..been busy,and of course lazy..my blog is collecting dust readi*sneeze*

so let me juz rewind a lil bit.. promo camp was the 1st event in january n all...had lots of fun for the 3d2n...hahaha..lots of bloody stupid mooments..

gt results earlier of the month. fucked up...it is bad..veri bad..

but then i pick myself up again..tried retaking but was nt allowed for some fucking reasons..

then applied for ite at simei,nursing..went for the interview..results will b on monday..so yeah..

patience baby..hope i get in dat course even thou it iss dificult n strict lyk wtf...

been goin for trainings evri friday,,.. i juz love the vibe in skewl.. veri fun!now then i realise it.meeting the juniors n my frens n the dinner evri friday n catching up abt stuffs...n importantly bitching ..i love fridays!coz imma total asshole bitch on friday ..hahha,...

have been working alot oso.. werkmates all kaki gereks all the tym.. my step mother leaving soon on feb..hahaha..nvm,i still gt my kakak tiris n abg tiris yg sumpah vulgar n horny to the max ( POKER gang ) there...

my family has been iritating but manageable n kecoh all the tym..hahahx..kak gerl is giving birth to a baby boy on 2nd feb..cnfirm plus chop..! soo, noise alert activating soon.. newcomer coming soon!

birthday wish going to eeza whch falls o 27th jan...hope u will manage those challenges in ur lyf n get more stupid birthday presents in the upcoming years ..hahahha...amcm?nxt year aku letak satu carton guiness pah?set ?ok golek!

birthday wishes goiing to the 30th jan babies : my 3rd sister akan zila aka minah...haf a gd n smooth year...dudok umah goyang kaki sua..haahahahx.... n to dian aka dee (oooofve gurlfren),hope u enjoy ur celebration on friday n basically enjoy ur year n life n evrithng ah senang kater..stay jembu alwaes n dun stop bein a bitch!hahaha..

talking abt on friday,well most of us came to the pit ..but nt all ah..awwwhhss...i so the miss them to the mother fcking earths crust noe... kips reminding me how we all used to be so enjoying our giler nk mampos tyms together in class n all...n the best highlighted event was prom n also sports day..we really2 had so much fun TOGETHER... n wth,did i actually kindof MIA from them? coz i didnt noe dat it was actually me who MIA..hahaha..coz they all say dat i am the one who MIA..kay wth lah kan..hahahha.. k nxt tym i will try my veri best to go out wif ya'll... coz i fcking miss all of them okay?i miss all the vulgar n total ass bitch moments..hahahha...

vulgars..hmm...i m actually starting to get more vulgar again..wth...

soo much of 'stop bein vulgar in 2010',,,yadah yadah yadah..but bein vulgar lyk gerek ah...feel so satisfied,,lagi2 kalau maki depan2 org tu smpai die terase giler babi nye..fooh!baru ade kick..hahah..fene ah fene...so wat kalau kiter fene? best peh jadi feneh..feeling satisfied alwaes...

aku nk org carik psl ngan aku uh..kn best gitu..asal tkde org nk carik psl ngan aku nie?maeb aku nie baek sngt uh agknye..hahah...mcm good2 oni..sepak muker,bisu nnt..hahah..anyone anytime activate ah..hahah..aku on ajer.. n i wanna enjoy myself dis year...dun wan my stress level to rise again.. maeb i shud start goin for those parties in alternate weeks to juz let it off..fuck i miss danc

ing till u drop moments... hmm...considering..dat wud b on my list...!

so now aku nye aiming for the upcoming months is get selected for nursing at simei..get approvals for clt course.. if dis two happen,then i wanna study hard all the way n dat is a promise...n also go for 59th intake on april n bcome a ma'am in AI ..n bring back the tradition...woohoo..k jgn put on too much hope..relax Q...hahaha....

k its abt tym dat i gotta end dis off...

so take care my dear peopple nn dun take drugs..n i miss u guys out thr..

n im fucking serious...hahahah...

FRESH!

2009-12-31T02:21:00.002+08:00

and i was oh-super happy since young!

yayayyayayayayayayaya!
2009 coming to an end..
its the last day infact..
i love 2009..
it consist of a total package in my whole life..
gone thru major ups n major downs on this year..
the tym i felt the shittiest n the best day in my whole life..
major breakdowns..n urge of quitting skewl..
meeting my all oh-super gerek kakis n ooofve gurlfrens n werkmates..
n easy to say,EVERYTHING.
all in 2009.
so my new year present would be wrapping up 2009 and
making it an unopened present..
atleast ive seen my present so i will learn from it..
yes..experiences would b a great new year present..
an everlasting present..
ive been feeling happy recently..
i repeat,VERY VERY HAPPY..
idk y but maeby its bcoz im free from any troubles..
my life has been very easy since..
n ive gt no new year resolutions..
i find it of no use..
i will just follow the flow yo in this new year..
happy,bubbly,cheerful,smiles,crazy,enjoy is all me now...
so who's with me?heehee...
i come to realise that i didnt always get what i wanted ..
but its no big deal actually..
ive come to accept reality..
i didnt get wat i imagined,i didnt get the perfect picture,i didnt get
the person ive always wanted to b wif,i didnt get to make evrione happy
i didnt get to change the werld to a better place...
but i noe dat ive done my best...
n the world aint a perfect place..
so yea,expecting too much might result to major hurts..
heehee..so dats it...2009 is so oh-behind..
i wanna start with a very FRESH mind,heart n soul..
i wanna be wif all-smiles lyk how i used to b when i was a small kid..
so the oh-super cute n happy..
now i realise my purpose in this family n world..
the one who is in charge of bringing smiles to everyone..
happy early new year everyone.!
and today im gnna be oh-super busy ..
rushing to buy stuffs,helping out at werkplace,and then
COUNTDOWN wif my one n oh-super huge family...
i m so oh-super occupied today..n i like!
kays n i shud stop my oh-super iritating talking...
take care people..do rot at home..n happy schooling to those
who starts skewl next week..
take care n dun take drugs..
i miss many people now...!
i swear...
much loves,
XOXO..

AND A NEW YEAR HUG WOULD BE LOVELY..

insomnia

2009-12-18T02:00:00.002+08:00

hello everyone!

sorry for the lack of updates..have been busy this few weeks.. busy with family and work..i barely had enough rest even..taking all the opportunities of working as much as i can..and spending my leftovers free time with family..and hell i have not been having any spare time for my friends..not even one of them..wat an asshole..shithead..yeah..same questions being asked..mane kau menghilang...tk hilang pon..busy pon pat yishun jugak..hahahx..have not even visited darlaa's atok..wah...mcm feel guilty siak aku skrg..nt bein there for any of them..aku keje mcm nk mati pon tk kaye2..hutang sane hutang sini..bayar balek..in the end aku dpt pakai stotet je..kekek siak aku...and im having this great insomnia at a superb awesome timing..when i am working mode week..resulting to feeling exhausted easily cause not enough sleep..power kan?tapi tetap enjoy ah abeh..hidop mesti mau enjoy kann?heehee...pat keje kekek je ah slalu..kalau tk suspect kuat aku mood swing..

speaking of werkplace,on tue i monday,something happen..it was a busy that day..kitchen only 2 person.it was so busy till dough not enough..so this manager of mine told me to juz use pan pizza.so i did.then while im doin,she comes in and nagging abt me doin it wrongly..she say she told me to use viva..wth..so i was pissed n juz sighed to myself ah..then she keep on nagging2 and aku rase sebab aku tk layan pon die punye nagging so she decided to kick my ass...wat the fuck?!aku punyer darahhh naek straight to hell siak...stopped wat im doin,turned to her n gave her the 'Q is fucking pissed off with u and u better shut the fucking hell up if not shes gonna do some real kick ass' stare...hell it works..!she back off one step followed by another..and another is asking me if im ok or not..haha..the atmosphere was tense mayn..i tink they scared i whack the manager face ah..coz my face damn sot ready..then stared her hard for abt 5 to 10 secs,and end it up wif my last warning finger action..hahaha....kekek siak...she takot readi..aftr dat she dun bother me..then the atmosphere cool down,she came in to the kitchen and say sorry alot of tym..hahah..i was lyk ah ok..then she repeat again n again..makin me pissed again..wah...tk paham bahase nye org ah die nie..tapi tetap kekek..coz my workmate was repeating how it all happen..and she act it out again n again..kekek siak aku ngan die pat kitchen..baru je half an hour b4 dat we talk abt being fanatic...amek kau!nie aku nye fene dtg balek..tros kene cap minah stepp..sial je..aku fene folow circumstances eh..aku kn adeq good2 pat situ...hahahahax..org2 beriman katekan..tgh marah pon tau control..iman kuat tuh..hahahahax...kalau die younger,not pregnant,n most importantly not a woman,aku da singgah siak pat muker atau pat badan die...sial betoll....pengxxx maot uh eh...da lamer tk project org nie..mmg mintak betol uh mak tiri aku tuh..

yadah yadah yadah...congrats to haziq afiq who passed out as a cadet officer for the 58th intake...kalau tk pasal si ABDUL MATIN QAWIY BABI BIN SIALLAN TU EH...aku da jadi cadet officer lah siol...even mr chin da approve ,da sign pon aku nye form...dier sendiri tanye haziq mane aku during the pass out parade itself..sial habes nyer ah si matin cucu mas selamat tuh...prangai anak2 anjeng besepah siak...haiz...anjeng lagi mulie siol aku rase.....haiz....hahaha...
k lets just end it here...maken aku continue maken banyak aku maki..mcm mane nk jadi org beriman kalau cam gini?
yeay iits 3am...way to go insomnia!

and and....
i miss my oooofve girlfriends..!lyk alot...they wont noe,but i noe..n imiss EEZZAAA,paitao!n nabilah!n my syg!n him!n my deltas!my close juniors!my pri sch peeps!n whoever who noe me..hahaha...coz i usually haf random recall of anyone at anytime...i wish there were more hours a day..so we cn spent time with our loved ones...hahaha..not happening Q..reality check..
n goodluck to all grandson n granddaughters of Mr n Mrs N-levels...

super on!

2009-11-30T21:48:00.003+08:00

juz ignore the date on the pic...

its unset to the correct date..hahahahha....

so...............

hmmmm...

holidays aint dat bad aniways...

hahahahahhahaha...

last week have been a werking week...

tiring but fun!

saturday didnt get to go for durr's party ...

shitos....werking on dat day..

haiya...

so after finish werking on sat nyt,went home as per normal..

but the day itself was nt normal...

we laughed alot...lyk hell lots...

till tears all come out..then forget alot of things..

then reach home..

aftr dat yem n khai came down...

so my sis n me go lepak under void deck...

laughing2...noisy sia...gosh...

hahahaha....from one topic to another n another...

hahahaha..

went home at 4am?yea...

straight away sleep lah sey....

later of the day...woke up,bathe....

went down to werkplace for a while...

took sumthngs..then went home...

n went out to sembwng beach...

chill there n stuffs...

went home at nyt...

then at 1159pm yem n khai came down again..

so we go down again..

lepak...kekek lyk idiots in the morning...

do some stuffs...hahaha..

then at 5am we go home....

n my wrist hurts tryin to open the chain of the door..

my mother ah so clever go lock the chain...

till use slipper all juz to open the chain..

so atlast i get to open the chain n we r in!

staright away sia go inside room..

not even 5 mins,im gone!

and woke up by accident at 12pm...haahah..

gt 4 sms...

i fogt dat i promise mus to meet at yis mrt at 12pm..

so get siapp chop2 nye...then went out...wah..

my eyes lyk veri heavy sia...met mus n dee n northpoint..

then went lepak awhile...then off to amk...

at 3pm i went home..

reached home..

gt nagged...then use the technique..

then me n my mum are cool now...no fightin...hahaha..

so planned for tmrw coz tmrw is my dad's bdae..

im planning to cook some dishes for dinner..

n tmrw morning meeting my syg!hahaha..

long tym neva meet ah...

so yeah...dats abt it..

super on for these weeks ah,,,

hahahahha...

imisssomeone!

DABOMB!

2009-11-19T21:40:00.010+08:00

my prom date!

the AI idol!

bestfriend!

when evrithg started gettin wild n wet!

PROM NIGHT 09 WAS THE AWESOME-EST GREAT-EST FUN-NESS DABOMB-ESS PARTY EVER!

evrione was really goin wild n getting down on the dancefloor...hotness n sizzlings hunks n babes...woohoo....came formally but ended up being in a total mess....heels,vests,blazers,shawls n some even clothes were all over the place...dancing,grinding,watever dancing is all there...evrione was being sporting n dancing wif anione...n we r lyk all packed but hell we still rock dat place...!ferst the stage,the dancefloor,n then the chairs!greatness lah whey...ended up wif drenching in sweats...nyce ending huh?sweetest tym yo...oooofve!N now evrione is sick due to the prom..hahahha...i gotta feeling coz its a veri gd nyt...sumbody call 911 coz dat place is burning wif hotstuffs....i know u wan me to dance wif u....now jump up n evrione gets crazy.....whine up oh yeah on the chairs....n some other cool shit songs whch is lyk the in thang...big thanx to the awesome DJ!n the emcee is great...he is soo fun...and congrats to izmil for winning the AI idol yo....n olso the prom king n queen(sebas n li yan)...

cool party...awesome shit...but makes us sick instantly...hahahaha....

oh fook!

2009-11-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

kay wth tomorrow is prom nyt!oooofveee.....

fucking excited ah abeh...lagi tatau peh?

gosh....!hahahahhaa...

but i swear prom nyt prep is veri leceh noe...tiring sia...

but nvm..i hope its worth it...

i wanna njoy fully ah tmrw...lyk fully....get high n all...

woohoo...!

so photos will b uploaded tmrw...heehee...

prom date will be...jeng jeng jeng....

tmrw can see the pictures....!

ohk n aftr being xcited n all...

somethng nt gooot came up...

my mum gt sick n im now at the hsptl wif her...

lyk wth?tmrw is prom?todae she gt sick...

wrong tyming ah sumer...

family problem thingy oso came up todae...

evrithng happens todae...

but fuck all dat...im still gnna enjoy my day tmrw....

hahahahahhahaha.........

will update the photos in the nxt post ah...

kkay..chiao!

pause!

2009-11-10T14:39:00.003+08:00

yeah!im feeling good as alwaes...

heeheee....

holidae aint dat bad aftr all...

eventhou at tyms it felt lyk im rotting at home..

but then it rarely happens...

time is moving so fast...

n tmrw marks the end of our O level babeh...

happy ah abeh...

then thursay is nabil's bdae...

then next week is prom...!woohoo...

then yadah yadah yadah...

1 month plus to countdown..

its all veri fast...

n BOOMZ new year readi..

n getting back to werking mode todae!

actually i still feel kindof slacky n lazy wan werk..

but in need of $$$$.....

total amount i owe is 200 plus?or 300...

so must werk n werk n werk...

i didnt get selected for clt course...

urgh!nvm..can try the 59th intake..

atleast i get to werk more..if not 2 1/2 weeks will go to a waste...

heeheee.........

but hey yo,as long as im happy,its ok...

okays!gtg earthlings!

make sure evrione stay happy always...

big smiles puh-lease...

peace out!

'i have a foul mouth but im funny.stick with me and you'll never be short on laughters AND you wont ever feel short next to me'---nyce one given by shafeeqah for me on facebook..

its me again!

2009-10-30T20:46:00.003+08:00

now u see me!

now u dont!

hahahhaa...been feeling great lately althou some thngs is up...
i still feel great aftr dat...veri fast...
ahahhaha..maeb bcoz im thinkin positive....
yayay...!positive thinking leads to positive life...
so my days haf been passed by wif same routine..
hahahhaha...
ysterday video called wif lil fifi dolly...
veri funneh...its lyk 11 plus at nyt...
n im at the void deck...laughing lyk crazy women alone...
n it looks lyk im talkin alone..hahahaha...till the battery died..
then today..met emie in the morning...then go meet kim..
then lepak under his void deck..
then made our way to AISS...hahah...
since its PTM so kim cn enter..
then we went np..ate at ahmei...then go to lepak at some shelter
then go home...hahaha...
laughed alot mayn...
then reach home...playlappy..go home cook..eat...coz im happy...
then on9...
chat wif hilmi,nabs,nabil n mie.....
hahahha...n im more freagin happy ah....
hahahhahahahahah...
so dats abt it ah...hahahha...
happy days...
i wanna kip it dat way....
juz the way i wan it to be...
me n my own werld......
n people ard me.....hahahhaha
k now chiao!

and red is lyk BOOMZ!

pissed

2009-10-27T22:40:00.002+08:00

yesterday's english papers was ok..i was glad it was understandable....
not much confusion wif the text..thank god...n today was math paper 1...
it was again...simply ok..i neva tot the paper to b manageable...but thank god to dat too...i was glad...it was hard to blieve..so aftr paper went to chong pang wif emie n dina..had a great tym there wif my dear fasya peh prangai...the video made me laugh..coz it was funneh..lagi2 the part when dina chased aftr fasya...1:33...it was hilarious..i cant hold my laughter mayn n kept repeating the video again n again....

but the part at home was fucking bitch...they dun understand me n i dun understand themm...didnt argued back..wow...lyk ferst tym...i was feeling so good at ferst..but aftr i close my bedroom door...i have dis strong feeling of anger towards them..n started messing up the room?n finally breakdown...i didnt get to vent my frustration ryt?dats wat i do then...i was cursing all my moments spent in the room alone..fucked up...pissed...mcm nk tumbok je muker korang...iiisssshhh....sial ah...aku prangai peh...ai!!!!!!!nabeh lah...hilang kn mood aku je....da ciao...

2009-10-21T21:55:00.002+08:00

ooohhh....im soo excited...coz tmrw is O levels practical...n friday is graduation ceremony...

n the followin weeks is written paper...n then dats it!woohooooooo!see dat picture above?yea...looks so kiddo..but the point im tryin to give yall is dat im fcking xcited to get dis thang whch haf been webbing in my head over once n for all....babi lah...aku happy sangat nie knape eh?oohh...lifes great..weeks is great...ooohhhh.....lets do some picture interpreting kays?lets see...i look soo happy when im actually gnna eat lemon chicken rice whch is hell sour...ironic huh?

im soo happy eventhou im gonna go thru somehng sour-ish...n afterall...it turns out dat the chicken rice is damn SEDAP LAH....

ok aku da merepek lah pulak...k dah...goodluck great-grandchildren of mr O's.....hahahha....yang penting confident ah doh!n lastly...q sayang korangs2 sumer...much loves!! xoxoxo.....

AND RED IS BOOMZ!

PRINCE OF THE SEA!

2009-10-15T12:21:00.003+08:00

14 oct 2009

me n mie..

mie n fhareha

fhareha n me

ysterdae was really a blast!hahaha...reached home at 2am eh mie?thnx to me uh...kena nag uh.....hahaha...dropped mie ferst then went down to yishun..n dropped fhareha then went home...hahaha...i oldest mah..hahhax...haiyo....

lets start from the beginnin...

i am so ubber proud of myself coz i make it on tym,actually earlier than the tym given ah...i came ferst yo!weird eh?Q came early?lyk unblievable..hehehe..so fharehasyg came shortly aftr dat...then mie reached..so our journey starts from 1pm from yishun mrt...trained to vivo...hahaha...otw was funny...mie nk step emo.then gt one bangla next to her..so we kacau2 her wif dat bangla..hahha...then gt two teens angmohs...hahah...their accent was soo lyk BOOMZ!hahaha...gt one part there were no connections coz we r underground..then the angmohs go put their hands up tryina get some connection for their phone..n we laughed..then i tried uh coz i wanna send an sms,skali gt connection ah sia..we oso lyk veri jakon..i was lyk,"eh ade ah,ade,ade!"

then the two of them oso tried..haha..n we r goddamn fascinated by that..hahaha..blah blah blah.then at harbourfront mrt,mie gt sstuck at the machine..hahha..coz she go tap ryt aftr a man tap..then she gt stuck.hahha...n she go run all the way to the service counter..i n fhareha was like laughing2 readi...slenger ah die nie..ahah..then we haf to actually look at the map to find the cinema.hhaa..emie so cnfident say level 4..check2 theres nt even a level 4 there..haiyo..then bought tickets but for 4 plus show...so we go makan at banquet..hahaha..evriwhere oso laugh2...then go giant awhile...then go to the level 3 thr..take pics at the water place...till 3 15 ...hahhaha...actually its oreadi 3 57...then mie correct tym,i n fhareha cnfident say its 3 15pm..hahha..check its 3 57pm readi.then we rush ah go buy gummies n drinks..we watched HAEUNDAE:THE DEADLY TSUNAMI....dat was lyk total random coz we dunnoe wat movie to watch..then fhareha wan watch dat one..so we ok go uh...

the movie was soo omgosh...touching giler babi...till we,the three of us n almost the whole cinema whch majority are girls,cried... yes we cried non-stop when comes the last 1/3 of the story..super sedeh...the girls on our row used tissue summore uh..but the three of us juz hide our face n tears under our jackets..cry until the body vibrate sia..imagine ah..padahal startin2 when enter the cinema ah,i n mie was laughin nonstop when we saw ALEXANDRA from our skewl wif her bf...who motek2 pat dlm...then when aftr the movie evrione exit wif sad face...veri effective huh the movie..wah...aftr movie we went to the second floor peh outdoor place..lepak there..watch the sunset while talking abt the movie again,ncc stuffs,ghosts,solo walks n espcially PRINCE OF THE SEA....he is the cutest guy in the movie..aww...i love him manz!he is a lifeguard..n he is sucha nyce guy smpai nk sacrifice for the girl...wtf! cried alot at dat part manz!shit ah...aww...n i dreamt abtt him juz now whch is super gerek nk mampos...lyk dunwan wake up siool....hahahhax...obsession ah..kkay then we camwhored here n there..abeh enter vivo again...go TOYSRUS...hahaha...giler2 there take picture wif halloween stuffs...n some other toys there..hahaha....then we went to the 1st floor outdoor place..we lepak-ed there n take pictures...

n laughed lyk mad woman...we heck care wif wat people wanna say or look at us ...we juz wanna haf fun okays...so aftr a veri long n fun day,we dcided to go home...reached home at ard 2am?hahahhahaxxx.....dat was a veri2 fun one...hahha...

mie,fhareha n me...

more pictures of the day with emie...

night pictures with me...

pictures uploaded at facebook....go find it there...

ok taking cares..
xoxo

lets start thinking

2009-10-07T23:44:00.004+08:00

im wondering

what would it be like in the future...

next few hours,days,months,years

i really hate senior years

gone thru my first in P6..

n i still dunnoe how it turns out till now..

r we still in good friendships or not...

so now..

my second is abt to occur

im left with two of half days each of studying as a class..

2 more weeks to an exam which is the passport to my life journey...

2 1/2 weeks of exam days...

a night on the 18 november to party with the cohort...

and then thats almost about it...

cause we will be taking our results lyk on feb?

and everyone will be busy with their ownn lifes..

well i know we have to move on right..

but just dont keep making those promises lyk

we r still gonna contact each other..

we r still gonna hangout....

we r not gonna forget each other...

sounds familiar much?

well dat was the goddamn same words used 4 years ago..

and what happened to all dat?

some even bcame our enemies?

bullshit ah?

but that is life lah...

humans dont always keep to our promises...

ALWAYS...

sometyms not hoping too much is better lah..

example lyk durrah taqiah...

we r super not in good terms with each other in pri skewl..

but coincidentally we ended up in the same sec skewl..

our friendship bcame better actually...

n we dont nid all those promises made back then to go dis far...

n now,all we can do is smile n get so amazed on our 7 years of frenship...

well most importantly i appreciate it alot lah...

n my bitches gang..

u all keep wondering y we get so close only this year ryt..?

n all of u actually wish it was from the start of sec 1s...

but i am so thankfull that we grew closer only this year..

cause i learn not to waste my precious time to get to know lovely people...

even it is a short bonding journey for us,i learned alot...

n i couldnt find even a little slot to fit in any hatred....

that is the nicest part...

the frenship we build was for a short period of tym

till we dun wanna lose the precious time by hating each other...

see the irony?

instead,we had alot of wonderfull memories to be brought along in upcomin years...

sports day,free period of poa n amath,n all sorts of crazy things we did...

well i have been nagging much like as if im gonna b dead tmrw(touch wood)...

and im not gnna end it off by ranting promises of we wont lose touch n stuffs...

i'll just keep it short n simple..

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE WHO HAVE PASSED BY MY LIFE...

IT HAS BEEN A GREAT N WORTHWHILE SECONDARY JOURNEY...

now lets chiong all the way for O levels...

n get our ass into some good skewls n our chosen courses...

n lets burn our books on the graduation night...!

taking care lovelies....

Q sayang korang semue!

<3<3<3

xoxo

get well soon dude!

2009-09-29T19:36:00.003+08:00

so yesterday whch is monday,i went to skewl...skewl was oryt..

it was nt oryt,it was fun,fantastic,crazy,da bomb,n veri cheerful..

i like it dat way...so lots of free periods...n we had lots of fun...crazy tyms..

in the aftrnn,i didnt go for srp..so taufiq picked me up aftr skewl...reached home..change...

then off to hsptl....

i swear the system superb iritating lah...frustrating seh...must register ur name lah..dis lah dat lah...n minimum 2 pax per tym n no child below 7 yrs old cn go visit the patient..lyk wth?so me n my sis went up ferst...visit him..gosh he look weak lah...n more skinny...

n his legs were lyk omg......wrapped up?wif metal2 thingy....pity hiim ah...i cn even see the metal rod whch is poked thru his foot...it is soo ouch okayy...but as usual ah..guys..cntrol macho..step ok oni...but he did ccomplained several tyms dat his leg is in pain...n he cant even eat...pity ryt...he wan eat chicken rice..so i blanje-ed him lah...then he oni ate 2 spoons of the rice skali vomit out...it was eeeewww but it was veri pitiful...then he offered me the donuts coz he cant eat.n i took it lah...he knew i wud wan it..coz it was choclate oreo...woohoo...nyce lyk heaven...so talk2 joke2....then switch turns wif taufiq n Zul's fren,farhan....they went up n i went down...then waited for them..n went home...then texted him for awhile...he say he feeling much better coz i came ...hahahaha....sweet talk mother fucker...hahahah...imma lil miss sunshine ryt?hahahah...

n sad thing he cant ride bike for ard 6 months due to the condition of his legs...then cnnt tompang me...hahaha.....lolx....ok go!

step good je...dat was when i goin home.. =)

dat was the opening on the foot whch i can see the rod go thru his foot..

pity him ah..his nieghbour nxt bed,veri iritating..veri noisy summore...

see dat 3 metals near the shin there?oso kena poke with 3 metal rods..

he cnnt dance to chris brown songs animore...hahahahha....okay dat was bad..

it is a joke lah....coz he love chris brown songs n olwaes dance ryt...hahahha....

hey dude,make sure u get well soon aites...

get well reall really really soon....

u nidda do something for me ryt..?

so yea...be strong...i noe u r...

i noe it hurts soo much actuali...

its been so long..

2009-09-22T01:19:00.002+08:00

so yea..here n there evriwhere abt raye raye raye..
slamat hari raye to all muslims...
havnt bloggged lyk veri long ah eh.busy mah.... or simply lazy?
hahaha..
so blah blah blah...............................
skewl,it has been perfectly a bitch n sucks as per normal...eh wait,nt normal.
it sucks mre now...i hate skewl...i really hate skewl...i wish thr is no such thng as skewl
but all of us are born smart...haiya...so ive gt some emotions breakdown issues n blah blah blah..
i nidda do wat i wanna do...i dun wan anione to tell me wat to do..especially strangers..
i hate,...super hate it...they cn go n korek lobang dlm2 n tanam diri drg sendiri..
so skewl issues...basically suck...n my prelims result obviousli suck to the fcuking core..

blah blah blah....n fasting month haf ended...means bazaar at geylang haf ended...haiya...
last day of bazaar was veri gerek...left home at 12 plus am...reached thr ard 1 am...then walk ard...bought kueh..n some other stuffs whch goes lelong...n lastly...bought food...n i believe in rezki menggatal...hahaha.. coz in dat way,we cn get extra food for free!hahaha...well, girls was born wif xtra speciality mahs..hahah....went home ard 4 plus i tink or 5 plus..i oso dunnoe...n later in the morning,wake up n go visit my aunties house....n yadah yadah yadah.............

n here comes the patah heart month....girls bein patah heart by guys...its happening dis month,..
is dis actualy the bless of syawal...? urgh...watever lah..wat i noe,we must nt put high hopes on someone...coz in the end,it is juz gnna hurt us real bad...stupid guys...mampos tknk...(refering to those yg mkn cili) i guess girls nidda start bein a bitch huh? so we cn b stronger...woohoo... hail to player bitches...! salute sama lu... omg y m i suddenly mcm olmost anti-lelaki? no no no..
i anti-jantans! heehee...but nt all guys are jantans ryt?so yea.. i still lyk some guys aka lelaki... jantans bleh g mampos sua...bunoh diri dari tingkat 99 abeh letak body parts korng yg da bekcai pat dlm plastic,ikat ketat2...attach to a large ship n sink it to the bed of the ocean... n michael jackson will come back to live to sing 'heal the world'..... wooh....rest in peace...

aku tk tau ape nk jadi dgn aku..kpale otak aku da berkecamok...n main reason bukan psl jantans actually...yg psl jantans tu sumer side track...tapi ade lah cket2 psl drg jgk...tapi problemnye aku tk tau ape nk jadi ngan aku...aku da mcm nk jadi pompuan giler pon ade... n aku kene takke care siot dgn otak aku.... bende yg same yg pena jadi pat kakak kakak aku da nk jadi pat aku...(oni org terdekat je tau) aku tk sstress lahh...aku cume nk hidop sendiri je dgn werld aku...aku tknk ade sape2 kacau aku... tau tk mcm org bebual werld mcm dunie nie drg pnyer? mcm gitu lah aku tgh rase nie...aku nk nanges biler aku nk nanges...biler2 je.anitym...kalau tkder reason pon tkper...asalknn aku puas...aku nk tumbok muke org yg buat aku marah even cket pon...mcm nk pump je...aslkn aku puas...aku mcm nk maki hamon saper2 yg maki aku even wif a veri common werd such as bodoh or giler...aku nk maki drg habes habesan smpai aku pakai sume vocab maki aku from A to Z....aku nk drg pulak nanges depan aku...hahaha...then aku bole ketawekn drg mati matian....aku nk ketawe smpai perot aku saket giler to the max...even kalau tkder bende klalka yg jadi...kalau aku rase aku nk ketawe,aku ketawe je...g mampos uh ape org nk ckp...aslkn aku puas,....aku nk ketawe ke aku maki ke aku nk nanges ke..nie aku peh hidop...hidop aku yg da nk jadi tunggang tebalek...yg penting...aku happy dgn aku peh lyf smpai aku tutop mate aka mati,atleast aku tau aku da puas buat ape yg aku nk buat dgn diri aku....fullstop...take care siot aku....

090909

2009-09-09T17:01:00.002+08:00

juz came back from werk...

tired lah but fun!heehee....

n lack of manpower todae..

oni me radiah farihan bart n fly till closing...so we nidda multi-task..hahaha...

but ok ah..since there is no pressure...eventhou orders were lyk da bomb today...

still boleh angkat uh....till during wanna break fast,oni take a sip of pepsi..then continue werk..coz if i were to stop,then theres gnna b a massive jam in the oven traffic..hahahha...

so ard 1 hr aftr the break fast tym then radiah cover my place a while then i get to eat...tu pon alas perot...n lincah kadoknye..then continue werking..aftr finish closing all then get to eat decent food..hahahha...baked rice wif chicken chunk n roasted chicken n alfredo sauce covered wif cheese..yummy...hahah..then bart soo kind hearted blanje evrione drinks ...so sit ard..eat..then home.!now on9..chatting wif iqa who still neva sleep..hahaha..ape nk jadi pon tk tau...kay go!

those things...

2009-09-07T18:25:00.002+08:00

blogger being a bitch..cant upload those webcam madness i had wif mus darling saturday...
we went to yishun library early in the morning..during the opening entrance...we r not kiasu lah..
the others ah...they even ran to the good spots..wth? both of us were so shocked lah..abeh...so i went to find a spot wif two plugs..gt it..n pushed the chair to the sides so we get to sit in the middle on the floor...blah blah..webcam-ed wif her...eventhou we r nxt to each other..thenn watch movie on9...we were thr for solid 5 hours...free intrnet n current n aircon...hahhaa...then pack up,went off...waited for my sis..in the meanwhile mus darling teman-ed me sit at the mrt station...n i told her abt somethng whch i feel abt...hahha...so we juz talk2...then my sis reached thr..n we parted...home i went...make some mess in the kitchen but resulted to good food....then at nyt...went to giant at tampines n aftr dat geylang AGAIN ..aftr dat go makan at syed @ 3 am... wah..sleepy ah abeh...at thr..blah blah blah...home!the nxt day whch is sunday whch is yesterday gt to werk at 12pm...wah tired lah...but ok..werk was fun thou...

friday,went to geylang...so reached thr.walk2... look for baju kurong... cream colour...i wanna go for somethng veri veri simple dis year...so yea.. baju kurong it is..n when i was tryin out dis particular baju kurong...i saw a bapok walking pass...siap dgn snow cap lagi uh...dgn glove..winter or wat?hahha... veri cute ah bapok..hahaha... then my dad n i exchange glances...n we r lyk laughing mayn...n i shouted,"hotstuff kepeh!".... hahahha...daddy was lyk staring at me again..hahaha..coz he scared the bapok will get offended...but no..he turned n smile...hahhaa...n we laughing our ass off mayn..so dat was it..n then gt my baju kurong..walk ard again....went to eat at teh tarik there..the one nxt to hotel 81..hahaha..ate,joked...n some chicken joke of the day...hahhaha...my mum ordered a 2 piece chicken set...whch cost $6.50..she tot its juz 2 chicken wings...skali the food come...ha ngkau! damn big eh...lyk extremely large till evrione nids to help her finish it...hahahha...n when the food came,all of us burst out laughing...till the girl face lyk wth?hahahha...talked abit...then home!reached home ard 2+ am? well standard uh..if go geylang cnfirm go home morning ...

n today...monday..i woke up at 3pm..! slept late ysterday.. n blah blah blah...later goin geylang AGAIN..hahhaa.. i dun find it tiring animore goin thr..coz its nt dat pack lyk last tymm..the tyms when the old dirty roads were daymn pack wif malay troops..hahaha..dat was way more fun than now...eventhou last tym we haf to squeeze lyk hell...but its stil more memorable n fun..n can easily find a 10 dollar note on the floor...hahaha... anione who say the bazaar now is pack lyk hell,i dunnoe wat to say...

im juz a lil too not over you...

they made my days! 310908..

2009-09-01T22:45:00.003+08:00

310908!<3

frenship never ends...

ladies of the day...

school boys n girls!

me,2,dbah

most loved batch! n peeps!

BK wif mrs lau! 6B 05

i loike this pic! 6B wif our darling mrs lau!

started the day wif celebrations in skewl..blah blah blah..the emcees were a pain in the ass..

felt lyk smacking their face..so noisy!idiots! went back to class..released at 10am..meet up wif durrah..n off to mit the others.so we were daymn early..so we slacked at 808.talked abt our pri skewl days..n relationships..had a gd laugh wif them mayn...nyce..i like!n dis particular outdated piyo2 chinese+ a malay group came to the blk..soo iritating.n noisy..n we r lyk talking abt them behaving lyk wannabes..whch is so daymn iritating..piyo2 zaman bile ehk adek..bodoh! tkde wawasan nye anaks2..k bck to the topic..the others came later...went in to pyps..looked for cikgu surati ferst!top priority..waited for her..n finally she came down..so slow..hahha.met her,salam-ed her,talk to her,n pictured wif her..then blah blah blah,we left...the others went back to change while i go to Burger King at NP to meet the 6B 05 n mrs lau! i miss her n them..shes my one n only form teacher thruout my years in PYPS..i wud nt forget her lah of course..so met them..talked2...they haf grown so darn tall! im the shortest of evrione now!gosh..my werld felt so small..hahahha...nvm..watever...hahha..then left home..bathe...changed..get ready..went out again..met dbah n yane at sunplaza thr..shortly aftr dat meet up wif 1 n 2...hahaha...inside joke..oni we noe..hahhaa..then waited outside mos burger coz its damn cold in the plaza..so fie n khalis reached...waited for the bimbotic durrah..whch arrives VERI early n fast...hahaha...then went to cavana to get seats..n lastly,one more came..FARHAN!!! gosh i miss him lyk alot2 can? he grown so tall n more mature...he's my kndergarten fren..n he goes missing for 2 years...idiot lah u...go missing for wat..big boss readi ah...business veri big readi ah..but he's the most caring of all the guys..hahaha..farhan mah..then we hang out outside sunplaza...we talk2 ,pictures, n sap-sap on...hahaha...then dbah ,khalis n fie left...coz dbah cnt go home late..then left me durrah yane nabil kim n farhan...we wan go town at ferst but coz yane live at johor we must b cnsiderate lah..so we plan to lepak at wdlnds...so off we go n farhan nidda leave..ada hal ah bro? so the 5 of us slacked at civics macd...bought double choclate frappe!woohoo....nyce lah abeh...we talked2...laughed alot2....then at 10 yane left..i sent her then came back to macd..so left me durrah nabil n kim...hahahah...we talked2.....alot of thngs ah....but i juz had so much fun....alot of fun...veri much...then 1 bought another double choclate frappe for me n durrah....hahahha...we are so lepak at thr...leg all go up to the seats..slouch lah...n laugh lyk nobody's business..then ard 11+...we wanna go off..so durrah walked home..n left me nabil n kim...we walked till the mrt thr..then i heard my sis calling me...n they are oreadi thr..hahah...so nabil n kim tompang oso...then evrione reached home safe n sound reachng midnyt...hahaha... i juz love them all hell lots...! they made my day...well ysterday n today..cool huh...i still had dat same smile whch i had ysterday...we must meet up soon!again!

now i nidda sleep coz tmrw is science practical exam..hahhaa...so bye2 for now...

1 or 2? oni she noes...i still keep somethng whch can prove it...hahaha...

n durrah sunggoh lah basterd at mrt platform..hahaha...

kay i love my old peeps! i feel lyk im really being myself when im wif them..hahaha...

n they have grown alot...they are now babes n dudes..

n the dudes are gentleman...hahhaha....

ok bye!

when the blessed months shoots in...

2009-08-22T16:23:00.002+08:00

marks the first day of fasting month...
the feeling this year is veri diffrent for me...
i wanna fast as properly as i cn...
insyaallah...nn take the opportunity to find patience in myself...
n maeb do as many good deeds as i can...n oso go for as many terawih prayers
as i can... i dunnoe y i feel lyk dis...
maeb bcoz theres juz too much bad deeds? i dunnoe...oni god cn dcide dat..
i hope to get the blessing from dis fasting month..
i juz nid to discipline myself.. alot... but i dunnoe if i really cn make the changes by this year... its feels soo dificult...
however i'll try my best...veri best...

so yesterday...friday,had onlli 1 paper..english paper 2..but it kills mayn!
its dificult eventhou ive read the passage b4 in some magazine i tink...
it nids lots of brain cracking thinking...but as usual.... i do it so confidently...
n i feel so relaxed... i hope i cn be in this state when i sit for my O level examination... aftr the paper,went home..n recently ive been gettin on the bus wif same tyming wif brian..hahahha...so we talk2... nnn... i m so fascinated by najib n his twin...at first i saw najib boarding the bus at from the same busstop as us...then a few stops later,someone from yis sec looks exactly lyk him..so i told brian dat he looks lyk najib..n he told me he is najibs twin...lyk omg..they look the exact same....juz dat the one from yis sec looks more mature n taller abit oni...hahaha... juz lyk a small kid seeing someone double..
reach home..change then slack..n the two minah ask me mit them..hahaha..ok ah..coz near my house oso..so met them..n they gave me 5 of it..then dina went off ferst...then i mie at lastnye go for training...hahah...so sent her till skewl..then home!at nyt went to bazaar at geylang...walk ard abit then home!

tmrw werking!first year celebrating fasting month wif them..hahaha...
free food yo!k im off ryt now...

to all muslims,,selamat berpuase!
puase,jgn tk puase tau...
hahahhahaa.... kkay Q da mcm paham nk jadi mufti..
k go!

i need a miracle,n it happened...

2009-08-19T23:07:00.003+08:00

prelims week...

evriday dis is wat they alwaes do..

study study study..

memorise memorise memorise..

sometyms i feel lyk im veri slacky..

coz i neva revise dat much..

im tryin to see how much ive remmbered..

so i juz walk in n do the papers based on wat rmmber...

dis will go on till next week yo...hahaha...

but exams are fun!

promoting 7 eleven lyk dat yo!

hahahahha...

so dat was candid by emie at ah mei...

i dunnoe y we love goin to ah mei....hahahah...

dat was on tue..aftr sea comp..

had fun crazy tyms wif them..

as usual lah...we all if mit up confirm bomb one..

hahaha....

so upper seletar was veri veri the hot...

n as usual,monkeys all ard...hahaha...

n do i look old on dat day?

the apek bus say i look lyk nabilah's teacher..wth?

n this springfield gal call me ma'am..

hahaha...instant promotion uh..

power or wat...

dis two crazy girl..hahaha..

fharehahahah syg wif her new peminat...

emie maggi also gt new peminat...

so kecoh lah from upper seletar...

till matin's car...n northpoint...

n chong pang...n then home...hahahha...

chaotic giler!

n my hoodies peh criter all....hahahahha...

n dis pic is stil in my wallpaper..

coz dis two babes,go take dis pic of them on my hp n put it as my wallpaper...

hahaha...siao ppl...trait from me i tink..hahaha...

daymn we were crapping n cracking all the way...

even till the last seconds when i nidda catch my bus...

oso kecoh..hahahah..

so i guess our nxt gather2 will b emie's bdae huh?hahahah...

lastly,,,,*drumroll*

my O level malay result...

i shud thank god for dis miracle...

alhamdulilah...gt A1...woohoo...

save me one subject to study..

so i cn drop malay n take dat period to study somethng else...

to those who does nt get the results they wanted to...

chill dudes n babes..

ur 2nd chance is waiting..

its nt the end..retake it n chiong for it...

dun ever giv up peeps...

endure!

ok im soo veri the happy readi..

this results made my day...

alot...n mus's treat to swensens was random?

well she is random mah..

hahahhaha...

thnx babe...alot...

n at home was fun!heehee..

today is juz great isnt it?

evrithng went veri well....

n tomorrow ive gt two paper whch i obviousli lack of knowledge in...

geography n POA...

ahahhaha...

confidence Q!u cn do it!

n is tmrw prize givin for the frisbee team.?

we got ferst mah...hahahah...

n wait,i juz rmmbered sumthng whch i nidda post..

well i told mus dat im so gnna post abt dis...

coz we talked abt it when we were walkin at the underground tunnel..

with a sentimental background music played by a handicapp...

abt how a a half piece of A4 size paper whch cost 5 cents?

cn make someone shed tears...ironic huh...

cmon our tears is priceless...

the comparisonn is lyk way diffrent of pricing...

kay...im done....

lets end dis wif a BIGG smile,hugs!

life is fun-quoted by brian..

no pressure-by riyan

ahahahhaha....
XOXOXO
<3

lets update yo!

2009-08-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

-FRIDAY-
skewl was fun2! last day b4 prelims!had fun in skewl..i guess so..ahahahha..hyper2..it feels lyk last day of skewl lyk dat..heehee..so yadah yadah yadah...it does nt feel draggy at all...veri un..summore durin POA,laugh2 alot...ahahahah...and dat was skewl!

worked at 6pm...supposed to b yana me n radiah..bbut radiah didnt came so ikin take her place...mayn they are crazy as usual..ok lah..bole dilayan...i was raped!!hahhaa...its a joke..coz they were bein so crazy n they onn the songs loud..then dance2 lyk nobodys business..go grind against each other..lyk they high inside club lykdat... then i was doin the pizzas when they made me join them..oh gosh...they combine power n go grind on me...i was lyk wat the hey?wif the dough on my hand...omgoshy...tryin to turn each other on or somethng..ahahah... we aint no lesbo..its juz dat these kitchen peeps are veri open minded lykdat noe...n im bcomin lyk them readi...hahaha...those peeps who dunnoe us will definitely tink we r damn freaky mayn n disgusting...but hey,dats us...the whole day was gone thru wif dat kind of atitude...dancing n grinding during werk....pathetic enuf...but fun ah,not boring at all...aftr werk my family pick me up n we go makan at al-ameen...

-SATURDAY-
went to TKC..gt some show or wat the hey i dunnoe...gt didicazli n all...ok lah...fun oso..free food!hahaha...then gt the launching of lampu hari raya...go watch a while..then went off to changi...to eat...n somethng happen durin i wanna order food wif my 3rd sis...we wanna buy nasi ayam at dis shop caleed 'takdename'...the pakcik veri kerek..so at ferst we maintain uh..old uncle mah..must respect abit...so my sis wanna ask abt the food she feel lyk eating..oni ask noe..then the uncle was lyk,"kau punyer turn da smpai blom?blom kn?abeh sabar ah" mak kau peh pukat uh...so my sis walk off n tell my dad abt it..but i still stand thr..then my father came..n he sarcastically ask me damn loud,"kau punyer turn da smpai blom?blom kn?abeh sabar ah"..i was lyk lost for awhile sia..wat the hey...then as usual,aftr the shop vendor give us wat we order then he ask for money ryt..so he ask for money readi..then neva giv the xtra rice..so i ask uh...
me-cik,nasik tambah die mane?(uncle whrs the xtra rice?)
pakcik-*just kip silent n the face stone*
me-cik,mane nasik tambah saye?(uncle,whrs my xtra rice?)
pakcik-sabar lah..tk tau sabar peh kau?!
me-eh abeh kau tk ckp ngan aku suro tnggu,kau xpect aku nk tau peh?prangai peh org tue! cam gini peh treat customer?serve org dgn muke mcm taik!tkde name tkde makne lah!da blah ah!(u neva tell me to wait then how u xpect me to noe?atitude old freak!lyk dis uh treat customer?serve people wif ur shit face!no name no meaning lah!)

mayn i was damn pissed off maynn wif dat old freak...reached my boiling point readi ah..paiseh uh...dun tink i small size girl cn talk to me lykdat uh...wrong person ah whey!i neva ever disrespect an old stranger till lyk dat uh...bodoh peh tua!

-SUNDAY-
went to SSC..neva werk uh...haiyo..watched the anugerah finalist..AAAHHHH!!!!sarah aqilah was there in person...she sing criousli damn nyce lah...so aftr the thng finish...went to smbwang MRT station meet faizah..give her the cd..n back to SSC..meet my mum thr...then walk2...aftr dat went to the jamming studio whr my daddy's band recording their song...slacked ard the area..then wait until they finish..n home!

---TODAY---
prelims starts!i swear i stone for a few mons aftr openin the paper..i dunnoe whch format to use..so i juz cross finger do the letter...then do the essay..n done!aftr skewl was O level oral english....had a gd chat wif eyka n shafeeqah while waiting...hahaha...from one topic to another n another..gerek or wat...n stumbled a few here n there...but when comes to the convo part,it was okay ah...talked lyk normal..n i tried damn hard to b as conscious of my werds as possible...hahaha...then went home...walked home!!urgh!my feet hurts mayn!haha...today we were laughing alot durin the break tym b4 the oral...veri fun2!heehee...n tmrw paper ends at 9 05am...yayay!goin to the sea comp then...well dats the plan for now lah...let tmrw dcides..hehehe...kay toodles!

take care people!duntake drugs..

Q is back to live!

2009-08-12T23:22:00.002+08:00

sup yo!hahaha...
ok back to skewl...now feeling better..but the stomach irritation is still there..hahha...but heck it..when in pain,juz laugh out loud..dats all!n yay!today i fast..heehee..even im fasting it doesnt stop me from doin all those activities...PE n aftr skewl...yes it is veri2 exhausting.....play frisbee..run here run there...n still standing strong till break fast...gd job Q!..yayay...today gt chem practical..we try to do it lyk a real exam..ok lah...i noe how to do the prac but when nidda record n conclude i lost readi..hahaha...n our class mixed team gets 2nd place for frisbee match whch the result was hanging since the sports carnival...today was rated hot..veri stuffy...urgh!!! so yeah dats the school story...

reached home,bathe veri long..just stand under the shower all the way...coz its freaggin hot..felt lyk bathing wif ice water..hahaha...then rested a while..listen to musics..n break fast!yayay!gulp the water lyk camel..hydrate myself again..haha...on the lappy,did some work. aftr dat all the chatted wif some peeps..n wat the hey!next week is sea comp?!n it clashes wif prelims n also O level english oral..hahaha...maeb i cn make it on the 2nd day oni..at least for a while oso cn lah coz i end skewl at 905am on tue..so i try lor...hahaha...i wanna see if they cn earn medals...lyk brian said,"i'll be surprise if they get medal"..hahaha...so we'll see to dat...i juz nidda noe wat tym is the compe n race...nn syg,u nidda pray hard ur race falls on the 2nd day lah...hahaha...kay..gtg now...get enuf sleep n skewl starts late tmrw...im off!

SARAH AQILAH WON!
shes gt the best voice ever,...
her victory is predicted...you go girl! =)

weekends!

2009-08-10T03:29:00.004+08:00

happy belated birthday singapore

hahaha...44 years n standing strong!dats the way...

friday's celebration was dabomb!celebrate national day wif talent...

whole event was fun n kecohs!

reached home ard 1 or 2 plus..slept till 4..woke up..

bathe n get readi for werk...werk was ok lah on friday..oni me n bella was the crew..

wat the hey?!the rest went to watch the football match between yishun yamaha team n NUS..

luckily it was nt hell kitchens busy on friday..well dat was surprising lah..

hahhaha...

so reached home ard midnyt..n slept till the nxt aftrnn....hahaha

saturday...woke up,eat,watch tv then bathe n left for werk...started at 5 pm...urgh..n hell its saturday..eve of national day summore...wat do u expect...kitchen crew was me,bella,yanah,ikin n radiah....i got wash!yayness mayn..since i was stil sick..so getting wash was absolutely acceptable...n the peeps today was all veri fun...so werkin was nt dat a chore aftr all....it was lyk havin fun...but quite tiring also uh...so finish evrithng..than as usual we slacked together...but this tym it was inside...hhaha..then we slacked outside...sat down...talk2..then my parents came n fetched us to go makan...went all-ameen...n when we reached there a few mins later the rest of them oso came to eat there...hahahha....n thrs lots of pizzahut peeps there...even from other outlets...reached home in the morning...ard 3 plus i tink...at home eat again..then slept ard 4 plus...so resulted us to wake up at 3 pm on sunday..hhahahah..we were damn beat okay...watched ndp from home tv..nt werkin coz last min the person's wedding canceled..nt goin out coz daddy gt to go sign contract wif some recording company for his band...so resulted us to enjoy great screenings on the tv..n reciting the pledge loudly at home..hahahah...at midnyt then we went out to wdlnds to eat...n now back home..n blogging...aftr dis gnna watch cd wif my sis.."hamburger hill"...some war movie..hahaha...so gtg now...

tmrw morning,or shud i say later,coz its oreadi 3 55 am...goin geylang wif parents n sis...then maeb later in the aftrnn its either werk again or go study...urgh...n my stomach still painful...cnnt eat spicy,oily,heavy food...so dat reduced my variety of choices for food..haiya....

delta 09

2009-08-06T20:47:00.003+08:00

long dao n faiz missed out from dis pic

lets start from the top....

Haziq,USM:wat can i say abt dis guy?hmm...i oso dunnoe..well obviousli,he was firstly my fren whch turns out to b more than dat n aftr dat,normal frens again..he is caring...but too mushy..hahaha...he cn b a great fren indeed...he is veri stone-headed n hot-tempered...hahaha...

but aftr sum tym...he began to cntrol it...maeb aftr those unwanted thngs happening amongst delta,he changed,,,so i guess the fights is all worthwhile....n thanx for the memories!see u in the nxt clt course...heehee...

Faizah,AUSM:the gurkha in our platoon..hahaha..i dunnoe how to describe her..she may looks tomboyish but then,her heart is much more soft than me..hahah..she dun lyk violence..responsible yes she is..she is weird i cn say...dun talk much infrnt of her..bt aftr long tym knowin her,she cn b crazy i tell u...n she is my all time soccer buddy..we love to play soccer together..same thng in common..if its soccer,we r alwaes on for it...even during training..hahaha...she is veri ez to join for any sport activities..dats y it is veri ez to engage in sports when im wif her...my sporty buddy!n yea..i kindof mis it when she starts bcomin crazy wif me...be it singing loudly or dancing to songs...it was veri fun...n i wont forget her embarass face when anione caught her bein crazy...hahaha..it was damn hilarious her reaction...and2,i wont forget the part whr she wanna change at the specs mess.then she told me to guard te entrance so no guys wud enter...n i was nt payin attention to her,coz i was at my locker...then she juz change her shrt...suddenly riyan or hairul came in..n the 3 of us were stunned for a moment...it was really funni..well it dun happen oni one tym,it happens a few tyms...suummore during camps..hahahha...im veri sorrey faizah..hahaha...mayn im laughin lyk hell while typing dis..i cant frgt the incident...

hairul,Charlie PS:dis emo guy...he is veri emo..hahhah.....emo hair n dress up emo...but listen to metals...tall guy,muscular,fit...sporty n perspire alot...healthy mah..hahahah...sometyms i cant understand him dat much...but i noe he gt the soft part in himself...dats y he is emo...n i wont forget dat he loves kitten..when dat tym we found 3 kittens in the searm...shortly aftr dat,he kips askin me if i gt animore kittens or nt..coz he is n love wif kittens...he wans to cuddle them..hahahha...funni ah dis guy...bt he gt dis fierce look...simply nyce to c him smile..lyk rarely..coz its either he will smile sarcastically or do his own stuff...n he is the guy who cn eat anithng ... raw or wat..he very ez one lah...

Riyan,Bravo PS:dis guy...ive known him for 7 years?yes..known him since his face was veri child-like n shorty...till now,all grown up,veri tall,n gd lookin...hahahah...dis guy is one hell injury prone...evri year he is gnna break somethng...i wont forgt the funniest iinjury he had..he fractured his arms i tink coz he fell when he was running while opening his pants...so he tripeed n hit his hand hard on the ground nn bam!nidda wrap it up..hahaha...at one tym he was bein pushed by fikri...then hit his kidney part at the pull up station...hahaha..n the specialist was lyk panicking..hahaha..veri funni...he has gt a veri bad temper during his short pants years...but when he wore dat grey long pants,somehow he changed...bettter lah..more open minded n matured..but nt totally lah...he still disturbs petra till nw..whch evrione even himself forgotten wats the cause of it...nn i cn say dat he gt a veri wide vocab of scolding bad thngs to someone by using high class werds..till sometyms u tot he was nt even sayin bad thngs but actualie he is...but despite his bad atitudes n all...i stil cn say dat he is a great fren...if u noe how to look deeper...u cn find his great sides..seeiing someone grow along the years is veri fun...seeing how they fall for someone..hahha..it was cute okay..he is nt bad aftr all...n he gt dat soft part also...it is veri obvious during our step down...hahhaa...sentimental values..yea...he is a cat lover too...he treats cats better than how he treat humans..hahaha...he wud even give his food to the cat...veri totfull...

Petra,Charlie APS:dis babe...the one who alwaes kena called jew but shes nt..she is christian..hahhaa...we also call her crocs..coz one part of her name sounded lyk 'buaya' whch means crocodile...hahaha..i miss her alot as ive mentioned in the previous post..veri funni..alwaes craps wif me..hahaha...n unforgetable moments was during initiation....both ours n the charlie's...ours was when she sprain her ankle n cant fit her boots in..then _ _ _ _ _ puts it on for her...im sure she was floating on cloud 9..it was funni..n during the charlie's initiation was when me n her sings boom boom pow damn loud n crazy...she was soo hyper dat nyt..hahaha...veri fun!n the guys secretly recorded our singing...oh yeah!n they also recorded faizah's singing...i forgt the song..it was funni shit...miss her damn lots...the piano n all...the bathing dance steps...hahaha....n those tyms when we were bored during training or camp,we took pics in the shower rm lyk drug addicts...hahhaa...i wont ever2 forget her cnfident face....either during parades or wat...coz it juz makes me wanna laugh when i was rminded of her...she is total crap but i enjoy her company...n i tink i juz realise dat she noes most of my secrets more than anione else...i guess so..coz i feel dat way...ok lah nt onli her...those ncc peeps will mostly noe most of my secret...coz we kindof share thngs wif each other openly when we meet up..update each other of our life...we cried,we laughed lyk hell,we anger-ed,we hated,we loved each other together before...

Long Dao,Charlie APS:dis guy is sweet i tell u...lyk criousli..he cn get along wif anione..he has grown to b more mature n more emo..hahaha...emo guy is all sweet...hahaha..he likes to build peace in each n evrione...when i was havin conflict wif him,he was the one who tried makin us get together again..he is a good guy..nyce guy..he cn even sit wif me alone juz to talk thngs out.....great fren when ure down..he cn give u advices..somehow he tends to b much more sporting amongst the guys..he lyk to take picture wif the act macho look...hahaha...daryl...hahaha...i certainly miss talkin to him lyk last tym when i was havin problems...he can b quite vain at tyms...alwaes askin if his hair ok or not n stuffs...but it makes him looks cool lyk dat yo...i juz miss dis skinny guy lah!

Fikri,Bravo APS:joker of the platton...big guy...loves reggae..rasta...ska n all...hahaha..veri chubby round like guy...he is alwaes playful ...sometyms thngs dat he said was nt meant to b a joke but the way he said it is oreadi funni whch basically makes the rest of us laugh along...hahahaha....i alwaes love to disturb him..coz he veri chubby n wanna act the kind who ask,"aper Q............"..hahahaha...evrthng also rasta2...green yellow red..haha..n yea,i rmmbr the funny incident...it happens during ole 3...someone told him dat we nidda wear no4 uniform to hike up the mountain at malaysia...it was juz a joke..but he tot its true..so he bring the boots all..hahaha..suddenly no nid wear...but then,he stil uses the combat boots to hike up...gosh..veri funni...but surpirisingly it looks more convenient for him to move...wat s more the route is slippery....we were laughin mayn lookin at him wearin the boots n hiking up the mountain..but daymn his stamina is better...hahahahha...veri funny,chubby n playful guy....freaky fikri!

Brian chen kai zhang,Alpha APS aka my best APS!:brian the botak monk...hahahah...the oni vegetarian in the unit...he alwaes haf gt problems wif food...hhahahha....dis guy...also i have known for 7 years...he used to b plum..but transformation begins n now he looks veri fit!he is also a veri nyce guy..sweet also..veri sweet..he is also my veri dearest scandal during camps..hahahah....he is lyk the most pwnage uber cool super strong lightning fast ,flexible as a flexi ruler ,smart as hell light speed reactions, more caring than god ,more lovable than teddy bears, more fun than chocolates ....how does dat sounds?hahaha...he told me to write these things...hahahah....but its true lah...he is lyk one perfect APS ive had...he is lyk a fren,guy-fren,brother,platoonmate,dearest scandal,sweet monk,gentleman pal,n all related to it...u all shud understand...hahaha...we lyk veri close lyk dat hahaha...he is also veri smart okay..dun play2 ah....haahahahha...he dun like violence also...monk mah...alwaes wans peace to the werld...he is religious...hahaha....holy monk...heehee...but his criticising vocabs is also veri wide like riyan..high class criticising vocabs...he alwaes believes dat life is fun!eventhou how crappy his day is,he wud alwaes say life is fun....hahahhaa...nyce guy ryt...yes he is...best APS i cud ever ask for...haha..at first ,when ive gt the post as Alpha PS,i noe it gives him a little nudge...hahaha...i cn sense it brian..i do...but lyk ive said..my part is ur part...we will take care of them together as one..n hell yeah we did...i cn see dat we've grown to get used to it..hahaha..till we bcome close...i m way much more comfortable wif u rather than the other guys..i dunnoe y...hahahah...watever it is..i shud say thanx for all the things uve done!alot...be it during ncc or POA or anitym...u r alwaes helpful n willing to help..n sorrey ah i cnnt write a much longer para for u..hahaha....

Faiz,QM:snoop dog!yea..the guy who take cares of the room ... i cn say he took really good care of it..maeb much better than the girls...hahaha...really...he is a veri fun guy also....hahaha...he gt a new wifey!nenek kropok whch looks lyk paris hilton n haf skills of playin soccer lyk ronaldo!great combi huh...hahahha...its an inside joke actualli...dis guy..hmm...he is funni lah...n he may looks decent but actualie,he cn folow us do sumthng bad also...he is alwaes on wif those kind of stuff...but first he will ask,"u guys crious ah?set ah!" hahahha...he veri kind also...n i dunnoe y he lyks to say 'yo' when he see me..hahahaa....n he is the one who recorded our singing i guess...his hp gt called up accidentally by faizah n at dat point of tym faizah was singing happily...n he kips sayin eh stop singing lah!...but faizah dun realise the phone gt called up...hahaha...n all the guys heard her singing...dats y i say faizah made alot of funni memories wif her paiseh-ness...hahahaha....n dis guy always plays his psp...in the room...nth better to do...hahaha...QM mah...n he alwaes gets pissed off when we messed up the room coz he gnna nid to clean it up in the end..hahaha...poor thnig ah snoop dogg!!!watever it is,u r still veri fun to hang out n very nyce kind also....thnx for ur hardwerk in keeping the room clean n organized!

Zulaikha,AQM:she owns the zoo at mandai...hahhaha...dis shortey,is veri cute!summore when she gets angry...juz lyk a small kid..she will tighten her lips together n then fold her arms...hahahah...veri funni ah she...then alwaes do her own stuffs...hahaha....she also may look veri quite...but then,her true colours are revealed when we were stationed at checkpoints at kampong wak hassan there...veri funni..we were both bored..so i on songs ah...at ferst member was shy2...sing also lyk to herself..then aftr sum tym...she join me in...sing loudly,crazy-ly n she DANCE!omgoshy....hahahahyup2..it was cute the dance..n she sing,wif expressions ah the face...feell lyk pinching her cheeks noe..hahaha...she was much more open minded..she dun stop me or look down on me when i do sumthng whch i was nt supposed to..hahaha...i lyk her atitude..she neva look down on me watever it is..she juz advice me nycely...dats y i cn take her words...heehee...i love dis girl lah...n miss her too...

2 years ago.....

2009-08-06T00:46:00.002+08:00

so it just popped up in my mind of 2 years ago..on the very same date..
at 12am ..yea..dats the date where evrione ard me know abt...6 august 2007....
dats veri long noe..how time flies veri2 fast...but we just cant last longer than mid march dis year..
too much conflict..dats how far we haf gone thru..1 year plus..but hey,wat for we go on if we noe
we r nt happy?ryt...i didnt haf dat much courage to break it off..n there,he save me all the talkin n guilts..
thanksalot for the break up..appreciate it real much..hahaha..weird huh..hahaha...well,i can say dat we
r nt in gd terms at first,but aftr some tym,we get used to it..we moved on...he moved on..n me...yea..ive moved on too...he's gt someone new while i prefer to juz hang ard wif difrent people...it widens my social contacts...yea..im nt writing up dis post coz i feel regretful or wat...it juz came into dat part of my small memory card somewhere in my mind..yea..so juz blog abt it..coz its veri familiar for me of the date...n the whole thing juz happens to flash across my mind...n the song because of you by kelly clarkson which happens to play just now adds in t o the memoirs..hahahha...petra shud noe the connection between the song n me..hahahha...abt petra,daymn i miss dat babe.same thng,2 years ago,i used to b veri close wif her..lyk evritym aftr skewl we wud go sumwhere together....but along the way i oso dunnoe how we drifted apart...but we still in great terms...wah,,imiss her craps n lameness...yeah shes one lamer but shes fun..wif her cnfidet face yg tk menjadi...i miss sitting next to her while she play the piano n i will sing to it...hahha..the last tym we do it was initiation camp...n i noe dats gonna b last coz we nt dat close animore...i miss disturbing her wif someone..n her
pissed off face when riyan disturbs her..aww...it was all veri fun then...i somehow miss 2 years ago...when we were all so young n playful..n living our live like there is no tomorrow..being mischievious n naughty..hahaha..it was all worthwhile...coz it brings great memories n laughing stock when we all will come back together n share our childhood nonsense...but i think i owe it all to ncc sea...it is from there whch these stuffs develope...ive met great people in my life thru ncc...be it seniors,my platoonmates or my juniors...ive met great people like my veri own delta 09...we have done alot of wrong thngs together..hahaha...evritym we get together,it will always b alot of fun...ive always enjoyed coming for training besides the passion for ncc..it is bcause i noe dats the tym i can get together wif my veri own bonded bunch whch i will rmmbr forever..there are some other more people whom ive known in ncc also whch somehow bcomes my darlings of life..my dear nabilah,fhareha(my syg),emie,dina,my alpha,n some cadets or clts from various districts...most of them taught me the value n meaning of reality of life...i do owe it alot to ncc...n nt to forget,hajar...she was the one who always disturbs me during training when i was juz a part A..n i gt so inspired wif ncc bcoz of her...how passionate she s towards ncc n how she enjoys her twice a week training..it was so much fun cmin to trainin..she planted the passion in me..n dat is y till now if i happen to see her aniwhere,i wud instantly put on a smile n haf dat respect towards her as a specialist ive knwon 3 years back...she is something.. i could sense the diffrence ever since we step down...my days of funstuffs n craps haf been cut down...from few years back it has been twice a week or even more then it goes down to once a week n sometyms even alternate weeks...n now,none...it gave me big effects...my usual time outs on friday aftrnn is gone...its veri hard to get togetehr coz we r bz studyin for Ns n Os... its really veri diffrent now..i miss 2 years ago...alot...i noe people chnge as tym goes by n i haf to adapt to it...n we haf to move on...

right at this moment i am missing alot n alot of people...
i just feel like meeting them n line them up n hug each of them..
tells them how much they are missed n how much they meant to me..

and i tink i shud end it here coz ive gt to go sleep n tmrw gt skewl!

2009-08-03T19:51:00.002+08:00

isnt it amazing?
that a place which once caused such angst,
such isolation and seclusion
Can now provide such insight
And reflection
to the days when we knew all
Yet we knew nothing

It used to be i
Who,inadequateas i was,sat alone and longed to be
Everything i could not.
I thought the world revolved
Around what i did not have:
Money,Beauty,Power.
And perhaps a portion of it does,
Still a greater portion of it doesnt.
I longed so long to be beautiful
I didnt realize i already was
In my own special way.

And now that the years have passed by,
i realize everyone has their own little insecurities.

Imagination kicks back, And reality sets in
People dont need pretty face.
They need an open heart,A listening ear,
An encouraging word.
How shallow seem now
The popular "heroes i so foolishly idolized.
The friend i held in such high esteem
Was the same one who tore me down.
I thought her to be so perfect
And set her as the prototype i wanted to be.
Only now do i realize
All the time spent wishing i was someone else
That someone else was wishing they were me.
Such wasted time we spent
Seeking out lives that were not our own.
Years later when the boys are all grown,
And our clothes out of date,
Upon which memories which will we truly look back and smile?
I think they will be
The ones when we became ourselves.

when you hold fast to your beliefs and live true
to yourself,your real value as a human being shines through...

my wednesday yo!

2009-07-29T23:13:00.002+08:00

oh fcuk!
running a temperature..its rising!

skewl was kecohrable gerek...floorball was superb...our team scored won 6-1...i tink..
it was veri fun...n wed is veri slacky for now..but stil sick...cibai uh!kay gtg...my eyes damn hot readi...my nose overflowing tap...my head spinning right round right round...n i nidda get down on my tilam n sleep...adios!tmrw stil gt skewl...urgh!!!kay chiao!talentime audition was fun too..sec 4s gnna conquer the stage yo!hahahah..kay chiao!i cant take it animore...

i miss you!

birthday wish!

2009-07-25T01:50:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY BELLALALALALA!

finally u reached that legal age huh?hahaha..

i noe uve been waiting long for it...

wish you all the best in watever ure gonna do...

even the wrong thngs u do...

kay,u can go buy ciggarates readi...

make sure buy for me also uh...

hahahhahahhahahahahahahahahhahahaha.....

may u live longer...but dun add to ur sins..

take good care of urself..watch ur health...

dun smoke too much n if can dun drink animore..

hahahhahaha...

aku mcm paham kasi org advice...

but wat the hey..ure my sister mayn...

n dun get urself into trouble..

n remember,if u really desprate to get into trouble,

involve me in....coz we've been havin each others back

for almost all the time...

u get into trouble,simply means im gettin into trouble too...

actually we've been always in trouble together lots of tym oso...

kiter kan twin sister...

eh bella?must call me raisha hor...remember?

good luck for ur N level exam...

do ur veri2 fcukin best...dun give up...

we will go thru this together...

u all the way for N and i all the way for O....

n go get ur car license fast..

uve gt ur dreams...go get it...

dun get demotivated by morons surrounding u...

and lastly,dun give false hope to alot of guys...

i noe u veri pretty....

as u get older,make dat changes...

hahaahhahahahahahahahahahhahahaha....

remember,in life,uve got alot of choices...

take ur tym to pick the best decision...

once again....happy birthday..

and dun ever forget to thank mum for givin birth to you...

coz shes the reason why ure alive for 18 years n more to come..

i love me!=you!,my twin sister wat...

toodles...

doubt..

2009-07-25T01:13:00.002+08:00

it has been 4 days im away from skewl..missed out alot..lets recap..
last week,only attended skewl on thursday...
this week,attended onli monday,whch we celebrated racial harmony day...n mdm rina came lookin for me..askin for my absence..n lookin at my cndition,she told me to stay at home for dis week...n make sure i totally recover..but hell i cant stay at home for the whole week..so tue watch movie wif eeza n mus n my sis...wed,O level listening compre exam..do it in an isolation room wif those sick people..6 of us..must wear mask all..veri stuffy n cnnt focus at all..if i pass oso thank god..went home... went watch another movie wif my mum n dad n irman...thursday,stayed home all day..WOW...its a freaking out day..bout mairah thingy n all...n my cough suddenly bcomes werst at nyt..grab the botle n gulp the whole medicine left...till finish..so slow wanna recover..haiya...nt long aftr dat,my head started spinnin right round right round...n BAM!slept till friday 11am...woohoo...da mcm swine..woke up..head pain abit..then throat sore more..wahpiang!blah blah blah....do my homeworkSSSSS....and this few days been chatting wif lots of people..some who long tym neva talk suddenly sms n msn-ed...missed lots of people...catching up thngs wif them..great!

i dont know why..but i am still in doubt..
the feeling of unsure of something,my own feelings..
denying it is lying to myself..
but in the other hand,i just dont want to put high hopes..
i am scared that i would be hurt again..
so better keep and admit the feelings to myself..
till the doubt is gone away..
and i do not want to take clues anymore..
cause sometimes it is not meant for us...
moving on with truths and sincerity...

the start and hanging

2009-07-22T00:19:00.003+08:00

early in the morning they met...
it was an expected meeting..
the sight of that person is enough to make the day..
whereas the smile,wider than the ocean..
the glare of their eyes shines...
shines more than the morning sun..
it was all sincere,pure...

they sat side by side..
close enough..
the wind rushed through the empty gaps..
almost filling all the gaps between..
the whistling of the wind as if playing like a sweet melody..
short speech or even spontaneous phrase said,
sounded like an angelic voice speaking.
it was all very sweet,sweeter than sugar..

one by one...
the things pass by them..
it reaches the eyes but gone in a split second.
but that was not what they cared about..
cause they only need each other to feed their sight..
having each other by their side felt,heavenly..
whatever people may call it..
strong aura of love,or even
potioned by the love juice,,
because that is what their souls are going through...
that particular moments made them feel life was a worthwhile voyage..
living by the side of the other half of each other's life felt,
lucky enough...

but when the wave hits that particular spot,
all the sweet moments vanished..
the current is very strong that it pulled them apart...
bringing only one of the person along...
dragging,or better still,stealing it to make the person part of the ocean's life..
selfishness indeed..
leaving the other half grieving on the same spot,
where they shared their sweet sincere moments..

it was really unexpected..
how the ocean witnessed their hearts first melts n moulding into one..
how they exchange wide smiles
how they glance at each other
how close they sits next to each other,
how lovingly they are..
despite all those witnesses,
it still have the heart to pull them apart..
away from each other.
but still,making it looks as if the blame was on the nature..
all there is left to be said is,
love sparks unexpectedly and unconditionally..
it just comes knocking on the entrance of the heart and invited itself in..

while waiting for the person to come back from the ocean,
the one left behind sat and ponder..
is there really such things as.........
was it really.........
was it actually.........
is this a.........

true love?

waiting for you.........

sick but happy

2009-07-16T22:05:00.003+08:00

kay today i did go to skewl..
been absenting since lyk friday?hahaha...1 skewl days im off...
kinda felt weak n stuffs...my throat feeling uncomfortable...nose is unconsistent...
fever at late night...but then,evriday i still laugh n smile as usual...
hahahah...as if im nt sick at all...
im nt lyk last tym who always didnt go skewl for no reason..i did change..i was sick n was nt faking it...well,skewlmates,felt lyk long tym ive nt been ard huh..hahahha...nt in holiday mode uh.

PE was great n fun...floorball is veri exciting...n theres new floorball sticks..its in black!
so all the 4e1 malays usedd the black stick..it looks hot on us..hahaha...well the match between boys n girls...GIRLS WON! as usual lor...we r mighty sporty yo! the rrest of the day went well...
juz kindof sleepy n still felt weak...my throat n nose stil a problem..temperature was abt to rise when i started perspiring alot..hahaha...so it stayed normal...phew! math srp aftr skewl..n home i went! slept straightaway..woke up at ard 7+? n starts using lappy all the way till now...
chatted wif emie SS n faiz snoop dog n hilmi prasan michael scofield...hahahah...omg!talkin abt michael scofield..gtg watch prison break!oh shit,start readi..kay go...

your craps are entertainable...
it can make me go lalala....

$300 lunch

2009-07-10T19:12:00.007+08:00

didnt went to skewl...woke up late..get readi to meet up the POA's....

bus packed lyk hell....idiotic people dun wan move in ...

haiyo..

change of plan... from swensens to sakura...

basically we ordered individual food n some dishes...

-large baby squid with pineapple

-medium kang kong belachan

-medium sweet n sour chicken

-medium lemon chicken

-large salad you tiao

-large mango salad

-choclate kit kat bonanzas

-few more ice creams

-banana split

and all dat cost $300+!!!!!

it was damn nyce lah...n mr vale paid the bill....

then we took pictures n all..

n something happened...

mr vale left his phone on the table...but he left readi..

so i get dis crazy idea of taking a picture wif his phone n puttin it as his wallpaper...

so we all took a group photo...hahdat mr ahaah...

n make it wallpaper...i dunnoe how he gonna react to dat yo!

n aftr dat seprate ways...

now im in the library whch is freakin cold...shivvering sia...

i feel great!

talked wif some people from mornin till now...

ariq! n dat CB wannabe...hahahha

someone is migrating soon!:(

kay watever...

tmrw n sunday off to play water again!:)

$$$$

next week gonna watch harry potter i guess?

okay im done....

when its done,remember to give me a ride hor...

its been so long

2009-07-09T19:53:00.007+08:00

my days have been really fun n enterttainin...
thnx to the bitches i guess...in skewl,they are the ones who enlightens up my day..
but when skewl ends,i suppose its only between me n my books n assignments
n LAPPY!
haf been goin to civics lyk olmost evriday...studyin n studyin real hard..
left wif ard 109 days more to go till O level?
dats freakin short noe...i dunnoe if im really2 readi for it or not...
but im preparin myself for it real hard...veri stressfull!!
no pain no gain...so wat to do..endure all the way Q!!!

today was fun!
ok so there is this teachr who suppose to relief mr morais...
n when he enters i shouted...."YO!"
N HE WAS PISSED OFF WIF DAT...
noe y?coz his nname is mr YEO....
hahaha..n he tinks im makin fun of his name...so he kindof scoldin but
it does nt turn out lyk a scoldin to me...
so we were answerin him back to all the scoldings n i was laughin n laughin mayn..
hahhaha...he talk wif no sense...wat the hey... i no understand uh...
n his favrite phrase was....."dun try to b funny here ah"
he said dat lyk 983798479857894 times.......
haish.....teachers nowadays...

PE was fun too...floorball was great indeed...i scored 1 goal...veri taiko...eyka start the ball hard n i swing one tym the stick to defend...n SCORE!irni was runnin aftr the ball...eye power uh eh tros dpt masok...power uh irni..hahahaha....then english was okay..went to dance studio to practice our oral text reading..i scored 11 out of 12 yo!great achievement...heehee....

yesterday night study was veri fun uh...ryt irni?ryt iqa? we r even bein accompanied by dat mr cockroach...hhahaha...n iqa wif the rubber band beliefs...hahahha...n nxt tym kite dangdut lagik ehk?

i once thought that you would be mine ...
and we could get together leading a memorable days ahead ....
but i guess it is not happening now?
i just dont know how to react when seeing you with someone else..
tried being neutral..but it is just deceiving myself..
i miss the jokes,laughter,nonsense,craps n memories we shared before..
those things are enough to make me wear a wide smile...
i think i am just missing you too much!very much.
making you mine was ONCE...

okay shud b endin dis post nicely...i tink i m juz missing some people who once did cherish my life before...their absence n silence is juz being thought of... but no werries..i will survive this!hahahha....

at first i was afraid,i was petrified..
kept thinking ,i could never live without you by my side
but then i spent so many nights thinking,how you did me wrong
and i grew strong ,and i learnt how to get along...

my babes would know how addictive this song is to me...i wish to sing this to evrione!
*two thumbs up,doin that m1 move*
n talentime is ON!
woohoo....

thanks for the memories...
n the cherishing moments..
i have learnt to appreciate great moments since then..
coz i dun wan to feel it only when its gone n over n done with...

I MISS YOU LYK HELL LOADS DO U FCUKING NOE DAT?!
i guess you wont n u dun...

wish u happiness wif dat someone new...
n i never thought i would be feeling like this towards you...

kay babes,if u all happen to read dis...dun bother askin abt wat dis post really is...coz it is nt that someone whom u all will thought of...it is juz someone who happens to pay a visit to my down moments many2 months ago....n im very2 okay...no crazy moods affected by this...juz conveying wats in my mind n heart....

end it up wif *i will survive song* n the *m1 moves*
ya'll sure can imagine dat ryt..i noe...
n dun try to b funny!

the wednesday curse is broken!

2009-07-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

CLASS PHOTO!!!

so yea,it was fun n a lot of laughter n bigg smiles obviously..
it is our last photo together..so yeah,we were makin it as memorable as possible..
i can say our class is made up of alot of diffrent kinds n backgrounds of people..
but after all,it makes us a superb great class to b in..

1st formal photo:decently smart smiles n faces..
2nd formal photo:on the count of 3,we pout..haha..veri funni..
3rd close up shot:evrione juz squeeze to the middle
4th funshot:the 7 of us conquer the whole front floor n make our shock face..hahhaha.
it was veri fun n kecohs..
aftr dat is chem @ lab..hahha.. havin a sotong lab partner lyk iqa is veri fun...
at one point of tym she ask me if thr is ani change or not..actualie dun haf..
but i say gt..then i put the test tube infrnt of our faces n started adding dis acid or wat....
thhen she concentrate n say no change..then i answer,"yes there is..the solution's level increases"
n u shud see her slow reaction..hahhaha..freakin funni..
aftr skewl haf a small group session for chemistry wif ms sor..hahha..it was veri veri fun...
criousli....yea,true..i shud come skewl more often n make people laugh coz they look so stressed n crious...n floorball was fun..but damn tired..k done for skewl..

aku balek .aku makan. aku tido.aku bgn.aku mandi.aku klua.
went for a jog wif irni n mimi..set off at ard 7pm?take the route from infrnt of khatib camp-khatib mrt-northbrook-seletar dam...hahhaha..superb tiring...aftr so long neva run dat long..well got lah but usually i do it alone n neva talk n constant pace..

comes the funni n crazy part..so i suggest to irni n mimi dat since we r tired,lets hail a transport..anithng oso can...lorry or wat,we dun care..then they tot i was joking oni..so we rested there awhile...then when we setting off,i was bcomin crious of the idea..so i started hailing n hailing...but no transport stop..maeb coz we were laughin n laughin n people nt takin us criousli...hahhaa...then mimi say must make pathetic face..so i ask her try uh...so she try..wif a pathetic face n a white handkerchief,she hail a vehicle..n a vehicle was curious about our seriousness but he slowed down...so i rush to go to dat vehicle n ask if he could give us a ride to outside of the yishun seletar....then he ok go...hahaha..it was funni..we were so drama-mama..sayin thank u all alot of tym..hahha...then alighted went to buy drinks...bubble tea yo!nyce..then walk home...otw back was fun too..then coincidentally met shakil..irni go tell them of wat we do n they were laughin at us mayn...hahhaha..it was really the joke of the day...then irni met din...then sms-ed my syg coz we were exactly opposite the blk..n i was searching for her but cnnt see...hahah...then mimi saw n she was the one waving2..then i saw her..hahha...funni lah...blah blah blah...aftr dat,we finish all n walk towards NP n jog home!reach home ard 9+...hahhaha...my butt is hurting readi..

gd luck for tmrw's O level malay oral....
bahasa baku ya..hahhaha...
harus konfiden..selamat berjaya!

meetin my dear nabilah tmrw aftr my oral exam...civic jugak..long tym no see her eh..
i miss her!

n yea u!nur fhareha bte mohd khaled..u miss me ah..i miss u more!lets go watch drag me to hell again....hahahha...

k im done....n i juz wanna end dis by sayin..
i feel superbly great,fantastic,hyper n many more today!most importantly,i m veri happy today!:)

2009-06-29T12:49:00.005+08:00

Halo!!!! ADEQ IS BACK to live!

22 june 2009:east coast park{random nyt out}

21 june 2009:yishun dam@ 1am {the youngsters only}

21 june 2009:father's day {penin,east coast,woodland}

28 june 2009:jurong

26 june 2009:museum

kay wt i can say is i haf lots of fun!father's day was super fun!we neva ever seen our dad smiled so much for the whole day..so its a veri gd achievement for us! had lots of fun! see,the mischievious daughters of his successfully made him had fun..hahah..

kite flying was gerek too...im in love wif kite-ing..haha...

yishun dam @ 1am was crzy..we were dancing lyk crazy ppl...turn the volume damn loud from taufiq's van n we was dancing n crapping..

werk was crzy too...n obviousli fun..we bring home alot n alot of pizza coz gt lots of excess..so give some people for free...hahah...n they kip on disturbing me coz im the youngest there..n my name is officially adeq or kechiq..lots of people r callin me by dat name..n botak was friggin crazy....dance fckin funny...so i cant help it but laugh the whole tym..

museum outing wif eeza n mommy n company was fun...veri funny oso..dat qaq huda was the most funny one..shes scared of balloons!so went to eeza crib's ferst then ibu's crib then dis shopping centre near queens----.ate at macd..then off to the museum.lots of fun there..playing wif the chinese props wif zu.hahha..then off to penin kfc..eating there was superb noisy coz we laugh alot...n aftr dat walk ard abit..n i went off wif ibu n qaq huds n raudah...home i went.n then change,went for our family bbq at east coast..

bbq wif family was veri fun too..as usual,we spent our tym debating n debating..but in a fun way..we can talk freely at dis point of tym..our parents cant scold us for dat...hahah..superb fun...foods were simple but nice..juz prawns,hotdogs,pizzas n pizzahuts drumlets whch me n my sis has smuggled few packets juz for the bbq...hahhaha...nyce or wat..so dbate dbate dbate..then at 1 am we pack up n go to geylang to buy durian..superb crazy noe...then aftr gettin it,we went to yishun dam n eat there..n dats is lyk morning readi..then eat2..send my 1st sis home n we went home..gosh evrione was superb sleepy readi..reach home ard 3+ am....had a veri nyce day...

yesterday went for the weekend werk..at jurong..at dis multi purpose hall..the wedding was superb nyce..theres 8 of us for yesterday...but wiping table was slow coz the 2 guys lyk mintk kene smack down...so slow sia...they stil cn sms2...haiya...then all the way sit on the chair oni...wat the hey..mcm gay sia...so watever..finish evrithng quite fast today.impressive..then off to ubi to pick up kim's mum n sis..then to nek jun's house..then off home...veri tiring..but enjoyable..my head felt lyk bursting mayn...so painful..reach home,bathe..went out wif mum n dad n my sis..eat at al-ameen..then we went to sembwng beach..take a stroll there..n done..

now,im chilling at home..neva go skewl...later wanna go civics..study lah.. haha...so yea..gtg now..

i miss him.

can?

reserved week!

2009-06-19T22:18:00.002+08:00

on monday!~15 june

mum went for her 2nd surgery..safe n sound..now can shout readi..hahah..

tuesday!~16 june

nothing much..went to NP library wif kak gerl...play lappy there..

wednesday!~17 june

went out wif my syg n murnie!hahah...catch a movie...DRAG ME TO HELL!
gerek the movie..to a short circuit mind people lyk me,i was laughing alot thruout the movie...
the movie is funny! alot of suspense!n disgusting actions...eewww...but veri fun uh...summore gt brutal parts..hahha..veri cool! n my syg was lyk covering her face lyk 70% of the tym?hahaha...n shocking her was more fun...hahahah...wanna watch horror movie? watch wif her..she herself entertainer readi...so aftr the movie.went to eat at KFC...n hey,my cousin werkin at the pizza hut amk dun recognise me..so sad n funny! coz she tot whch minah rep staring at her wif a wicked smile...n she got scared! hahahha...i was laughing oreadi.....oni 1 month since i last saw her..n she dun recognise me..maeb ive changed..haha..coz evritym i met her ive got dis decent image...hahha...wateverr lah...continue..when murnie buying the train card...veri the kecohs..hahah...coz i kip pressing diffrent thing..hahah..till my syg nidda push me real hard n we r lyk playing sumo there...hahah..n my slippers gt switched by i dunnoe who..hahah..oni realise it when we reach yishun mrt..then yadah yadah yadah..met kak gerl..went to my werkplace...n the people there dun recognise me mayn!hahah...so sad..i noe...they gt this `who the heck is this' face...hahah...then slack a while..pasar malam..n home!

thursday!~18 june

so gradually wanna go srp..math srp..veri smangat readi...then! mrs Raj kena quarantine!
so no srp..then headed to marsiling..next step..hahha..its been so long i slacked wif my dishes..then mus haf to sit lyk so long for her hair to get done..so in the meanwhile me n eeza went to her homie coz she wanna chage clothes..then bought drinks n pau..then slacked outside the salon...chatted wif eeza...lots of things...never talk lyk forever...hahha..joke wif her n stuffs...hahha...Q baru balek london uh...surprising eh...hahaha...yea..i will go ur homie visit ur mum all soon enuf!its been a long tym babe! aftr dat off to yis mrt...met my sis..n headed to werk! well werk was fun lah...quite relaxing..weekdays mah..then walk home whch resulted us to reach home ard 1am?hahah...standard uh...

friday!~19 june

woke up..i tot i was dreaming when i heard my ferst sis voice..so i sleep back..in the aftrnn i woke up again..n yea it was her..wif dat lil kechiq thang..hahah..nasha! so blah blah blah..bathe..get readi to go out..went to skewl..they gt training uh..so came down..hahah..delta 09 thrash the room again..ryt infrnt of their face..n they didnt do anithng bout it..the splattered eggs shells were still nt cleaned yet..eew...so we grab stuffs..lots of stuffs from the room..be it used to b ours or not..hahha...aftr the training finish,me dina fhareha n emie went to buy drinks..n i wanted to press chrysanthemum tea when dat small kechiq girl aka anak khalid aka my syg go hit my hand n greentea is chosen....OMG!n i hate greentea...to the max! but i cant believe it thruout my whole living tym,i drank a whole bottle of greentea..it suck! but just drink uh..then went busstop to take the bus..all the 4 of us...crap inside the bus..usual ah..n it reminded me of emie who shouted "paramore" ard a month ago?when she saw paramore singapore versionn...hahha...watever...yadah yadah yadah...headed home...n my mum cook ikan sumbat 'stuffed fish'..veri the nyce...the sambal sunggoh lah kedi tk pedas langsong...but veri the nice....kay Done for today!

lets see the future!

tomorow!~20 june

LIFE'S A BEACH! or let me rephrase it: life as a bitch!
hahhaha...cmon mayn!people bcome bitches when they wanna party!
but ferst thing ferst...got werk in the mornning..so tmrw the black team at yishun...
aftr evrithng finish then we head off to siloso lor..hahah..updates will b tmrw..

sunday!~21 june

father's day ryt..so obviousli we gonna celebrate..so yea...hahaha....watever dis week is reserved for enjoyments onli...basically im happy thruout the week...nth to make me upset ,,,,,yet.......... hope nothng bad will happen...

have fun eeza wif ur family celebration...n mus wif ur family thingy!kkay...n to anione out there oso..haf fun! n i miss lots of people...n yea eeza combine my nicknames together...

adeq_choc-drag yishun pampered!
actualie i gt more nickies luh...hahha...
dats juz some of it whch consist of adeq at the front of it..

2009-06-15T21:51:00.008+08:00

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dat is the date when we step down n the end of our ncc life..handing over the unit to the nxt group of specs..i can say dat choosing the top 5 is oreadi a dificulty coz theres nt much of those 'potential ' leaders...dis is the fact ...but i would say dat choosing the top 3 was easy..we easily haf reezuan , zaini n dina in mind...there were nt much question bout it..so i shud congratulate them...watever it is its over..we haf let them go to strive on their own..well eventhou wif us as their senior advisor,its stilll dffrent..

now lets get to the emotions story:

well..i just feel so superb sad..the nyt b4..whch is on thurs nyt folowed by frriday morning..we were spending our happy laughing tyms as much as we could..it was superb fun..n we camwhored alot..imagine 700 plus photos in total...dats alot okay..we went to macd at ard 10 plu i tink...then otw there we started gettin hyper..n me n macho guy(dao) was always askin kum fai abt party..haha..8% 8%...hahahha..then reach macd we were talkin funny photos of faiz n kumfai n haikal n my darling scandal(mat sayo)...macd dat nyt was superb crazy..we were all the way laughing our ass off...n otw back to skewl we heck care abt the superb silent neighbrhd n we juz laugh n laugh n laugh...n walking in funni way n all...takin stupid yet funni photos...till kum fai says we r oreadi drunk...if there is ever nxt tym we mit him,he nt gonna let us drink...then i was lyk laughin2 n laughin2...till all our breathing lyk ppl kena asthma..n laugh till kena sore throat..imagine dat..n i neva seen faiz n dao laughin lyk dat b4..i swear..hahha..but it was real fun nyt..so we took pics here n there..n faiz scored the most for most funny candid pics..i swear..so we plan wanna take pics at bio lab at 3am...then reach skewl laugh2 abt the pics taken..n evrione started gettin soo tired dat we started lying down..n bam!sleepy!so we juz sleep then coz the nxt day oso we nidda wake up for our last day wif the unit..so yea..n we all criously lyk drunkards...sleep all lyk anihow...haikal sleep next to nurra...then faiz on the table..then pet nxt to faiza,me nxt to pet n mat sayo nxt to me..macho was sumwhere in the middle of the clssrm..all dun realise .. the nxt mornin whch is friday wake up then realise wats goin on...hhahaha..n the four of us was lyk squuezzing on the mattress..hahha..

so bathe n all then met my part...talk with them ..last sentimental talk...al those werds lah..then tym to rehearse,,,so rehearse2..then during the last rehearse i was lyk veri sad..i tried so hard controlling it...but i juz cant..so drop by drop fell thru my cheek..i look at them and i was so emotional..it was juz hard to let them go..its lyk i haf taken them from their ferst training n now im handing them to another person whch i dunnoe if he can entertain their nonsense n lameness n their childishness lyk i do..it is veri weird..my alpha they really love to joke but i dunnoe how they maintain the respect still...i still gain the respect..n aftr all these tym,they tinks dat im veri strict but they stil try to get near me..dats wat i love abt them..they are nt shy to joke ard..but theynoe when to respect me..n yes they are veri childish n blur..but they tried their best...so yea..during the handing over..as i took 1 step back..its falls juz lyk rain mayn! n gan was lyk snapping2 pics of me crying there...so yea i repeated the same thing..whch is "you beter take gd care of my part uh"..cry n cry ncry..till march off oso i stil cryin...then reach hentak kaki,haf our last cheer then bam!berets in the air babeh!hand shakes n hugs for delta 09...dats the end of our ncc n specs journey...we have gone thru thick thin tall short sweet bitter beautiful ugly watever u cn describe it together..as one..i love ya'll...n also my cadets..my alpha...eventhou they didnt buy me ani choclates or wat,its te memories wif them whch they gave me whch i will olwaes rmmbr in the future...those tyms when i bring them to beach rd n their childishness...they are cute litle earthlings..n im sure gonna miss all their nonsense...

i cant lie but im sure im gnna miss ncc alot...coz its gnna give me a lil effect...in the upcoming fridays,we wont get together as usual n talk corks...we wont haf a second home where we can store our thngs...the searoom is lyk our home..evrithng we nid is in there..i would miss dat room alot...we wont haf stupid confllicts abt ranks n all...we wont get to scold lil juniors for small mistakes...we wont get to wear our uniforms n show how smart we are...n all those memories...n evri tym we mit in the future,we will oni b recalling on our memories being tortured as a cadet..well atleast we feel proud being tortured ...it makes us strong people...thnx to the crazy seniors...we wont b talkin abt latest cnflicts abt the unit or wat..how time flies so fast...when i look back,i haf oni been wif my alpha for 4 months..dats short..im stil questioning if wat ive taught them is acceptable for a duration of 4 months..well im touched by my alpha's words...i ask them who they wan for their next PS n they instantly say,"U!"...i almost cried infrnt of them..dats how emotional i m on the last day...n they look so innocent n like unaware of the cnflicts n all..n they was lyk asking me if i step down oreadi,would i ever come back to visit them n train them..i was lyk so touched by dat...it simply assured me dat ive done my job dat even they tinks dat i m a gd PS...even the most egoist cadets all was sayin nyce thngs..n hong kai,yes the one whch i olwaes gets iritated wif,he tried to console me when i cry..he was lyk "PS dun cry lah..stop cryin..u make us veri sad u noe..we gonna miss u alot..u cn still come back ryt.." noe how touched i am?its undescribable...i juz tinks dat my alpha gonna b potential cadets if their new PS would mould them a lil bit more..

congrats to reezuan aka the USM...zaini aka the AUSM...dina aka the PART C PS....irsyad the PART B PS.....syafiq aka the PART A PS...n hakim aka the QM...well,ur appointment as the student councillor president does nt give u a high post in ncc...it actualli makes u get the more lower post...but still its ok bein a QM...its top 6 atleast...hahah...gd luck in cleaning the rm...beter think on a way to get rid of stinking stench of decompose food...traditions are traditions..

ending off dis journey of life's lesson with a smile n a tear...

weekends n week ahead

2009-06-09T00:33:00.004+08:00

weekends:
saturday....
went to beach rd in the aftrnn wif my part A's...hahah..the whole 15 of them..so yadah yadah yadah..crowded mrt ...urgh!as usual..standard uh..saturday..so reach thr..get the cheapest..give all the names..while waiting we went down to eat..ate nasi ayam penyet..then finish readi..went up..took all the namees..then walk ard..n i bought 2 t shirts...then off to mrt station..headed home..reached homie..my mum ask me to folow her out..so i didnt change..then i went out for a while go shop...actuaally quite long uh for th esuperb short distance coz i lepak a while...then came home,she went out readi..called her up n started arguing y she neva wait for me..urgh!so watever..juz chill at home wif sis...

sunday:tampines blk 103
so early morning woke up n get bathe...wake up 7 am...then went out at 8 plus...wait for zul...lan oreadi reached wif his farmland lorry..n kim wif his black n red rxz...so wait wait wait..zul came...so we set off...so bear tompang on kim's RXZ..while i get a ride on zul's KR..hahaha...so off to tampines...reach there..makan breakfast..then started washing the dishes..slacky at ferst..but when reach noon..all the way non stop uh..plates all kip coming..stacks n stacks...so we juz kip on goin n goin...tired liao...so reach ard 6 plus then we finish evrithng n pack up.then change to dry clothings..then set off to yishun pizza hut..write roster for dis week..then off to mit the rest at my house carpark..so we plan to eat sumwhere..n bam!sakura..coz someone wanna eat sharkfin soup..so yea..headed there,,ate..then off to seletar dam..chill then head home coz its mdnyt..n daymn!i realise dat the full moon was superb nice n fascinating...

monday:today
so yea...i wanna wake up but i juz cant..my head superb painful n heavy..get the picture?mus called..n i said i goin coz i juz opened my eyes..but when i wanna get up,tkbleh tahan babe...so msg-ed her saying im nt comin skewl..so yea..so back to ssleep....wokr up at 1 plus?freshen up then talk2 wif my siblings..then we went down lepak a while at the voiid deck..then headeed home ard 4 plus...then my parents all go out..left me n minah...on9..cnfirm wif thhose ppl abt camps... stuffs..then talk otp wif nabs...cnfirm abt tmrw...then mum called to come down folow go makan..so simply went out wif my shorts n tshirts..hhahhaa...aftr eat all...home!

tuesday onwards:not-at-home week...
tmrw or shud i say today(tym check),must wake up eraly go HQ wif my part A's..then aftr dat come back skewl for srp....srp class from 2 to 6pm..can die uh!aftr dat gnna mit nabs to watch movie...watchng the 7 plus movie.then maeb eat...n then go back skewl..the specs book-ing in for camp 1 day earlier...whch is today...nidda plan camp suffs all..then settle logistics...so yea..basically gnna ton at skewl...n camps = sleepless nights...camp is on wednesday thursday n friday....but friday noon parade readi then bersurai...then aftrnn nidda go werk whch starts at 6 pm till closing...then saturday morning nidda wake up to go for weekends werk...n usually it will strech till aftrnn n tiill nyt...thhen sunday morning nidda wake up early morning oso for the same werk...n the sunday usually ends in the evening..n monday got srp...? then still nidda werk at pizza hut...replacing my sis coz she wanna accompany my mum to hsptl...so no one can replace xcept me...can dat dtails give a picture on how lethargic im gnna look like by the tym skewl reopens?better still nxt week..n im sorry if ive been veri bz for my dear frens for ani outings or wat...coz yea..packed schedule..but there comes a tym when i'll put it all aside n get to party mood yo,,,hint hint 20th june...*keneng naek naek*

so take care ya''ll....dun take drugs...i'll update in camp if kum fai bring his lappy,,,hahaha...kay chiao!anithng juz sms or call me...n i lazy upload photos...

my fun friday!

2009-06-06T12:37:00.002+08:00

the friday,typical friday but a veri fun friday..maybe bcoz i was nt home the whole day?hahah...think so..
early morning woke up n went for the seminar at grassroot club at yio chu kang..then aftr dat me iqa mus dee n syafiq went to NYP to eat..but since finding the atm machine was trooublesome,we dcided to go amk hub macd instead..so ate there n jokes n tak abt some stuffs...then off to amk hub..walk2 ard..mus wanna buy clip..so blah blah blah..then mus wanna head home.so i n syafiq n mus took the train..i alighted at yishun n went to NP..met my syg there...bought choclates n donuts..then bought a cig case..then headed to skewl .

training was fun...our last training together..sad in a way..now i dun feel lyk stepping down.mayn!so had a wonderful tym taking my own part A for drills n PT..then talk wif them for awhile..then bersurai..it was juz fun ysterday..n neext week wed is our initiation camp ..3d2n..hahaha..nt 2d1n as our tradition goes...so it means a hell lot of torture for them..hahah...so bersurai readi,change to werk uni..then waited for hakim to fetch me..

werk was fun too..eventhou i was feeling veri tired n stranious..but due to the crazy people..it enlightens my day more..for the ferst tym,since i werk there,i saw the crazy side of yana...she was juz soo high n crazy...lyk people take steroids or wat..so much energy...she is lyk the oldest of the youngsters but she was the most crazy one ysterday...n i was a victim of butt smacking for ysterday..wahh...but total fun lah...then she did some funni stuffs whch makes me n ikin burst out laughng lyk hell..crazy ppeople in the kitchen yo!imagine a person ard 23 year old lyk dat whch the face always lyk crious then turns crzy..creepy sia..lyk a switch of identity lyk dat..so werk till closing...reach home ard 12 plus..then sleep!

today goin out to beach road wif my part A's..then i dunnoe wat to do readi...tuesday goin HQ..n tues oso maeb goin out wif nabs!

kay sayonara!

my week

2009-06-04T17:21:00.002+08:00

sunday:
went to werk(not pizza hut)...dat is wash dishes at weddings..hahaha,,,i swear veri tiring..so dat day was at tampines..so our team was the blacks...consist if my sis(bella n gerl2),hakim,fiq n zul..'
n fasya tag along..so ferst started wif wiping the plates bowls cups all..then change to wash dishes at the end part all the way..veri tiring..hahah..but alot of fun..aftr dat went mkn..then home..
n my veri dear sisters haf somethng in their mind whch is veri iritating for me..hahah..u noe i noe..."ligat ligat ligat"

monday:O level paper
i was superb scared..n dis is lyk for the ferst tym i nt cnfident to sit for malay paper..gosh..the paper was difficult lah..haiya..i tink i nid to retake the paper whch at the ferst place i dun wish to..haiya..watever lah,.n i was nt feeling well during the paper.felt lyk puking,,n hah!i slept during the paper.n the invigilator woke me up n tell me to check my paper..(are they supose to even communicate wif us?) watever it is..hahha...

tuesday:no srp
slept till noon...hahah...nth much..normal day..maeby i went out wif my sis...i forgot...

wednesday:my parents 20th wedding anniversary
in the morning went for the literature seminar on unseen passage..the lecturer rox mayn!he believe in freedom of speech..hahaha..so aftr the seminar whch is at grassroot club,went to macd coz mus wanna grab a bite..aftr dat went to ah tong to fetch shayk..then went to skewl for srp...guess wat ?theres no srp for us..urgh!waste tym..so head back to ah tong..blah blah blah...went to kfc at chong pang for the meeting on the upcoming camp..bla blah blah..then went to CP...gt the bus wif kila..hahah...then wait for my sisters lyk superb long..so yadah yadah yadah..walk ard..bought cake..then help fiq wif his werk..then home..my parents werent home..haha..initially my mum was upset coz she tot we forgt her anniversary coz we r givin reasons dat we gnna mit our frens all.then whhen they reach home,we surprised them..cutting cake was emo for mum...she cry for dunnoe wat reason,.hahha,.oni she noe y..okay then done..i sleep coz today nidda go skewl..

thursday,today:
start the day late..reach skewl at ard 8 30 am when actually i nidda reach at 7 45am...then blah blah blah...then aftr dat went to grace wif eykaby!coz gt no class from 9 to 1130am..next class was at 1140 am...then reach physics class late wif the E1 malays.gt called by mr morais..n i swear i was pissed wif him..

he can say watever he lyk but juz dun mention the werd deserve..mayn!i dunnoe y he daymn me soo much..since normal skewl tym..when the others gt scolded too,he will always emphasize on me more...i can deal wif normal scoldings okay..but nt when u try to judge me,,,so basically he mention thngs lyk,'u dun dserve to sit for O level' 'u shud juz be in normal acad or normal tech n takin n level if even u can do it' 'y dun u juz quit skewl?' 'i dun even bother to look at ur marks' n many more...do u noe how it feels to get those kind of remarks ryt to ur face wif ur frens lookin?it is juz so urgh!so went in the class..n do my own problem whch actually i tried doin his werksheets..alone..my hands shaking n all...cant concentrate..his werds juz kip flashing into my ears again n again...i was cntrolling myself..when he come by my side n say,"how many subjects do u fail actualy?" so i juz nudge my shoulder..then he ask.."how many passes?" so i say 3..then he make lyk the kindof face whch says gosh!haiya.... so when i answered him,i suddenly feel so useless...lyk a loser...sore loser..born loser..i feel so stupid..so dumb..so no future...n stuffs...n i tried cnntrolling myself damn hard but i juz cudnt..

1 by 1 it rolls down..so i juz walk out of the class...sobbing on my own..n went to the toilet to coll myself down..i dun wan anionne to see me in dat state..urgh!so took long tym to settle down..i kip hearing his werds again n again...n the feeling of bein a loser basically grew more...n i juz cudnt stop crying..until at one point of tym when my feelings of anger evoke back..there goes my emotional feelings..banged the door all n puch the wall until i tink im ok..n then i went back to class..more relaxed than b4...so i juz check my answers..n then dismissed...sent mus to busstop...thought of followin her go eeza house but then i dunnoe y i gt sudden change of feelings..i nidda go home n reflect back on wat haf happened n wat to b done...n importantly i nidda relax myself fully..so on my way home..i cried again...alone in the bus...no people...i juz cudnt take it!reach home,sleep straight away..i dun care if anione nagging or wat coz dats nt wat playing in my mind..

so now i juz woke up n bathed...goin for werk now...

tmrw:
-literature seminar on whale rider
-werk at 5

sAturday:
-wash dishes
sunday:
-wash dishes...

next week friday is initiation cammp!step downA!woohoo...

ok take care ya'll...

veri nyce! n not...

2009-05-30T22:29:00.004+08:00

thursday:PTM...

my results lyk erm...shit?

english:c6

malay:b4

elementary math:f9

science(physics/chemistry):f9

combine humanities:f9

english literature:c5

principles of accounts:f9

i aint even abit hepy wif my results..duh???

haiya..due to my overwhelming bad results,my june hols has been really occupied wif supp class..

almost evriday lyk from morning to aftrnn..simply lyk normal skewl..or even more..lyk till 6?

haiz..how to rest?can dei uh..by the tym reach O level,all warded at mental hsptl..haiya,,Q!endure..all the way for O's...mrs heng wanted to motivate me by saying:"i tink u r left wif two choices..one,u come back to this skewl nxt year(stay back) or two,u straight away werk aftr O level(no skewl gonna accept me)"...mayn i felt lyk shit! haiz..bad way to encourage..kay close case!

friday:sports carnival @republic poly!

4E1 girls got 1st position in frisbee competition!

gd job bitchess!(irni,eyka,mimi,dee,iqan n me)
from left:(irni,iqa,dee,me,mimi n eyka at the back)

the whole thing starts wif the torch relay..n an opening speech by mr chin..n afr dat evrione went for their respective venues for diiffrent sports..well for sec 4's,we played frisbee n table tennis..for me n the normal malays,we played frisbee! i played for the girl's team..(sorie mus)

mus played for the mixed team wif shaykh,shafiq,haikal,eileen n malin...while riyan,faiz,brian,sakthi,hazimn one more guy played for the boys team..

the whole game was great..

started nycely but when the sec 5's played rough..we cant stay frenly mayn..so hell yea!evrione started playing so garang!we were soo into wanna win the game mayn!our class has been damned coz rumors spread dat we r the best class..resulting to the ultimate violence towerds us..

so the ferst match,irni gt BANGED!n she rolling2 on the grass...n dian too fell aftr irni rolls..ouch!

alot of injuries happen..but fun!n i gt lots of injuries too coz i dunnoe y the heck they like to damn me..urgh!but dun judge a book by its cover..i may b small but dun hurt me..u gonna get hurt if u do..so the ferst injury was by aisha..a sec 5 gal..strong n fast even wif a plum body.so i block maha block when she gt the frisbee..shes daymn good!but i stil get to break her throwing alot of tyms...hehehe..n noe wat she do?she sort of hug-ged act me from the back but on my face..so,basically she crushed my face from the back..n i didnt let her haf an ez tym aftr dat..nxt one was two injuries from the same class..a class who really daymned us..also sec 5..one girl triiped me wif her legs while i was tryin to run..n the other was a big size n tall indian gal who basically come from nowhere sprinting n KABABOMB!it was so ouch!n to break the body contact when she bang me,i punched her chestwif both fists..hahah..n she was lyk"argh!!!!"... take dat! another one is i gt elbowed hard on my bloody fface while i was in the air position...got elbowed n stright fall to the ground!it hurts for goodness sake!n so i quickly stand up n did something whch scares the hell out of the girl...the others thought i was jokin n they were laughing mayn!n the girl really the face damn scared readi..hahah`...n still gt other injuries occured..when i juz flew n landed on my body to prevent the frisbee from touching the ground..it was a sacrifice but worths alot..

mimi was superb active..one action whcs is soo awesome is when mimi n eyka intercept the frisbee to the core coz it veri near to the opponents scoring line..so they die2 must dfend..n from bhind the opponent,both of them jumped so high till they bang onto each other!hahahha..it was uperb funni...but it works !veri nycely done!woohoo... they are the best dfenders mayn!iqa was superb good defender too!she n her long hands n the tallest of us all..oh yeah..we are rated short from the other classes..but height doesnt matter...the result proves it all!dee was running here n there mayn...n somethng funni happened early in the morning..de called iqa dat she woke up late n gonna b late..but guess wat?when we called her,shes already at wdlnds station...=.="

ahahhaha..

we were so crazy thruout the whole carnival..singing n dancing to the songs whch is on air in the stadium..it boost our energy mayn..n asking for ppl to takepics of us whenever we saw someone holds a camera..

after evrithng..we showered at the shower room...shower oso veri the kecoh!pass shampoo lah,soap lah..then aftr dat we eat at RP lawn foodcourt..then slacked at the agora hall like nobody's business..till 230 lyk dat..camwhored n crapping ard...then make our way to causewaypoint n ate at swensen..veri the kecoh oso..n yea..mimi sunggoh iritating..irni sunggoh iritated...then fari n eyka went home,i went to werk n irni mimi n iqa went to yishun park n dee met sharil..n werk was fun too!but i was freagin tired lyk hell..n i fell at werkplace..adding to my several pains..

this gotta stop..the nonsense n lies spread by someone...he spread the lie dat riyan said dat those ppl taking N level haf gt no life...lyk wth?he didnt even say dat...n pity the guys team coz instead of showing sportsmanship,the other classes guys team has been hurting them violently in the field itself...n the cause is by the one n only him who spread those stupid lies..n the acads n technical classes haf been givin them hurtful games..nt a competition animore?my theory is...he is scared to hurt ani of us by himself..so it resulted to him sayin "riyan.u watch out ah"...n since he noes no one gonna help him if he tell the true story whch starts by his own emotional atitude,coz 99.9% of the skewl hates him..even his classmates n his "frens"...so he tells those lies those liess using sensitive topic such as the N level students gt no life..n he noes its gnna evoke the anger in his frens n they gnna in a way try to hurt riyan for sayin dat..but to think of it,they are doin it nt bcoz of his sake,but for their stream's sake..so it doesnt make sense lah..

hahahha...my syg gt 26th in cross country..wat the hey?y drop so much?even last tym i better than u!hahhaa...hahah..watever it is..good job!i love u!n im mssing u!

today,saturday:typical saturday

woke up at 10 30am...since ysterday slept ard 1am aftr cmin home from werk..woke up,showered,get readi n off to werk..it was fun at ferst..till those 2 china gals come..urgh!superb pissed off wif themm..n blah blah blah..then finish werk at 5pm exact!coz shima came readi..thank god...so i change to home clothes n slacked at office with win while waiting for staff meal..then talked wif ikin for awhile...hahha..she did nt nid to werk today bt she neva read the msg from nathan so she caem for nth..so aftr eating,n drinkin free-flow of coke,dcide to go home...salam-ed yana n nt shima..purposely did dat coz of some reason...hahahha...then while in the bus,met hasmilah...a cadet from my part(part A)..so i ask her wheres she goin..n bla blah blah..she was alone..offered to accompany her n she said ok..so went to NP wif her..had laughing moments mayn..walk ard...look ard..then she was hungry,so i told her to go n eat,,made our way to MacD..then she blanja-ed me a meal despite my full stomach...had a good laughing tym..then walk ard to popular n stuffs...then home!well,i cant believe i juz went out wif her..oni the two of us..n we lyk so normal as if we always hangs out together..hahah...

tmrw morning2 at 0830 must go out readi..go wash dishes!hahahah...wah..tiring mayn!n monday is O level mother tongue paper...how great life can b?hahaha...

great way to end the last day at skewl!

2009-05-27T21:07:00.002+08:00

okay...today,no fancy colours or wat..juz black n simply black..
let me start with the early mornin..

performance by the technical class..awesome music.it was nyce..especially the song im yours by jason mraz..it was good...good job guys!*around of applause*

this simply means dat ive gt no issue with tech students..they have been great guys..yes!xcept for some ppl who keeps demoralising himself by sayin,"i noe im from tech n im stupid"
lyk wat the hey?!no one says dat..he is the one who repeats it over n over again till my ears get so disgusted by it..well riyan did say dat pass/fail he still ends up at the same place..well it is the fact wat..but then if u work hard after entering ITE,u can succeed wat..juz lyk kum fai*salutes*..u juz didnt take dat positively coz u oni thinks of finding our faults to start a new arguement besides the unit problems..coz eventually u lose to the arguements on how ur atitude problems n how u treated us n ur cadets lyk ur dogs...

i pity faizah alot..she is sucha great help to u but hell,it looks lyk shes gt no equal rank with u..n noe wat?we treat each other like our brothers n sisters..but you?treat us like ure god n we are to listen to ur loud iritating voice n listen to ur shitty commands..u treat us lyk we are cadets..hell we are ur specs(if u still realise that)..i tink u r juz too obsessed with ur master seargent rank whch is lyk equivalent to wat faizah has sewn on her sleeves?or maybe dats the only achievement that uve got in ur life.well congrats if dat is so..but then,u misuse ur achievement..u even blame me for ur change?wat the hey?!after all of ur,"fine..it is all my fault..i'll take all the blame"u end it by saying u changed bcoz of me..arent u simply blaming me?gosh!when i tell u not to involve personal matters in,u instantly say u didnt..but u juz did..u gt a problem with remembering words u haf said?n he is the one who said wanna settle all this shit..but he doesnt seem so..

he started off by increasing his voice whch all of us are nt even tinny winny bit scared of..so he make me blow..ive gt atitude problems too!wow..but mostly expressed on u!coz im fcking pissed off onli wif u..i dunnoe y is dat so..maeby bcoz we did shared sweet memories in the past n wif the way u treat me now is hurting me or wat..i dunnoe..watever it is..im juz pissed off wif u..alot!i didnt ask u to change.i even told u dat we can b good frens aftr the breakup.n i meant it..but u seems not to accept the fact..i cant do much abt it..but this is the something whch all of us can do..n noe y?it is to help you!help you realise ur unneccessary change..n get back to the old u..

n when u asked do we realise our mistake..we've gt an answer for u ..yes we did n we realise it..n u asked for an example of our biggest mistake..n another good answer for it..:voting u the USM..biggest mistake.u used to b the dserving USM..but nt animore..wat kind of a head leader which gives up on his own unit?no gossips..u say it..u gave up on the unit..n u even say dat u nt attending the initiation camp..wat the hey..for wat reason u nt attending?n u say its of no use for u to come..is dat wat a leader supose to answer?a LEADER!n i wonder how the TO's can approve to dat reason..imagine if ani of the specs to give dat reason to u..would u accept it?u tink u r the head leader u can just leave n come as n when u like?

n even blame us for nt havin the initiative to inform him dat the training is dismissed..well at the ferst place,do u even took the initiative to even walk a few steps into the searoom n inform us dat u r goin for a 'meeting'?do u?!u r nt even there for the whole training..n we as usual,lyk ur dogs..haf to come with a plan on wat to do..but hell yeah,u can ask the cadets how fun the training is..WITHOUT YOU!we atleast joined them thruout the whole training..when u?out of sight for the whole lyk 3 hours?wat meeting is dat?or u juz letting out ur anger somewhere else..or even scared to face us all..i dunnoe n i dun care..

back to today's event..so he eventually keep telling us to shut up when we need to give comments..n hey,i m veri particular abt ppl pointing their finger to me n askin me to shut up..so yea,u get the hell of me..its my bloody fcking mouth n its nt ur bloody fcking father skewl whch u can ask me to leave as n when u lyk..its nt gonna happen to dis girl..n i was gonna get more physical then verbal until an angel maybe on ur side came n he cooled me down..dat was a help..he gt a class goin on..u r lucky boy!n u cant even take the painful words delivered by riyan whch is in a nice tone..he is nt even shouting n u can get pissed off..so yea..the power of voice does nt help u in this case.. i can say dat thruout these years,ppl are inches afraid of u onli bcoz of ur voice..without ur voice,u wont get respected izit?is dat ur defination of gettin respect?

n he complained abt riyan n brian's atitutde?watthe hey?if its abt the blog post..i tell u...go do a blog lets see how u would express wat u feel in it..freedom in blogpost mayn..our blog,our say..u dun lyk it?then y bother to check it out..n i can say dat u cant make a decision on ur own!always seeking help from the seniors in almost evrithng..better make the seniors the leader ryt.well im nt blaming the seniors for his actions..they arent to blame coz dats their job..help when theres problem..but cant u lyk juz sit n think on ur own for once?or even tink wif us...big talk from a small man..

n u say dat my way of talking is quite unlikeable..im so pissed off wif dat..this new ma'am dunnoe me or wat n now shes trying to judge me..n the usm is oso the same..i noe i dun grow up in a veri decent family lyk u do..we talk in our way of comfortibility..we curse n stuffs..if my way of talking doesnt suit her or u,then i can say "fcuk off n go die!"dats my way..atleast im nt changin for/bcoz of someone!im me..thru my way of talking i still haf frens..but u?surrounded by enemies n "frens".....n hey,anione in this werld never talkcork before?slap their head ah!i usually talk cork during trainings coz its a way for us to haf fun..dis is our ncc life since sec1..we are used to crapping...n suddenly dis 3 new TO's comes into the happy,strong,bonded, full of traditions,crapping unit n evrithng turns upside down..theres always anger in evri trainings..we r bcomin weaker as there is alot of things we cannt do animore..the unit not getting together coz our request for an excursion or outing or bonding leisure camp is not approved...n lastly,they break alot of our traditions makin us lyk a crappy unit sinking n not rising...n it is all abt BUC...whch we cant achieve when they break our secret traditions whch makes us a strong unit previously...

to end the topic about dis:i noe wat we've said to u juz now was fcking hurtful n painful..but we tink dat u dserve it n its the oni way to make u realise ur mistake..we wanna settle it but u juz didnt wan to do so.wat more can we do then?after all we are juz ur slavery specialists..n hey,dis girl is telling u to stop ur nonsense..n dun threaten people by sayin ,'watch out'....coz its not gonna werk...but hey,kiter ade cara...at one point of tym,i myself will throw the ego in me n ask for forgiveness from u..but dat tym's oni gonna come when i tink ddat u dserve it..for now im juz gonna say,stop ur iritating attention seeking actions n atitude..

n i gotta say dat i felt a sudden thing happening when u say u changed bcoz of me...i dunnoe wats the feeling upon hearing dat..but dat lasted for a moment..coz im juz too strong for u to make me breakdown again...no more..never...as ive said,life is unpredictable..the person i love the most previously turns out to b my biggest enemy for now..never expected it to happen..

next event:frisbee!
friday is sports carnival @ republic polytechnic sports hall..so after the arguements all,we played frisbee..hahah..u all never see dat side of me before ryt?hahah..chill...way to go Q!i noe u all will b wishing dat u r in my shoes n shouting at him ryt...make u all shocked huh?i noe dis side of mine is hidden by my prolong smiles n laughters..it is better dat u all noe me the cheerful part rather than the volcanoic part...i dun lyk dat..heehee...sports is medicine!i like..healthy living too....friday mr vale gonna treat lunch @ seoul garden!heehee..looking forward to fridY!

TOMOROW!:PTM
i failed veri badly..n juz now mrs heng called me,shaykh,n syafiq to the front..she told us dat our parents nidda come tmrw..its not compulsory for all students..but ffor us its a MUST!urgh!i tink im juz gonna ask my sis to come down...my mum shudnt noe abt it...haiz...O level malay paper is next week monday!6 more days..im scared...

i love ya'll!i love 4e1!i love my bitches!i love mus!i love eeza!i love irni!i love eyka!i love dian!i love fari!i love iqa!i love mimi!i love syafiq!i love shaykh!i love haikal!i love brian!i love riyan!i love faiz!i love fik!i love hyrul!i love pet!i love zu!i love faiza!i love cikgu hartini!i love mr vale!i love evrione who noe me! random feel of loving evrione.. they are my brothers sisters 'father,mother' ....

memories of specs life

2009-05-24T22:51:00.004+08:00

after 4 years of goin thru hardship n happiness,some things juz corks up due to some

irresponsible people..those were the happy tyms i can admit.but hey,it nids oni 1 leader to make the unit rise or sink to the bottom..well,currently,we r havin this conflict between a non-deserving leader(who always make us like his doggs or what) n the rest of the victims..well,its juz tym dat we(the victims) speak up n fight back..juz to make him realise his mistake..n obviously he noes wats gonna happen n i can say he've got no balls to settle things like a leader..always gettin help from someone..better ask dat someone bcome the leader ryt..so its obvious he realise dat we gnna fcuk him upside down n he resulted to avoid us from the start of training till the end of it..well,when we left,he is still not at sight..how irresponsible is dat?he neva attend to the cadets.n we are his 'slaves' who nids to haf a backup plan to something whch were at the ferst place he didnt even plan..haish...so without him there,things went smoothly..most smooth training ever in our sec4 life...juz lyk we juz took over..we had physical trainings but we still had fun..lots of fun!obviously without someone who will take advantage of his irritatingly fcking loud voice to scold people for no reason,show off his temper or wat n all unneccesary related stuffs..we still gain respect n fun witout doin all dat..one word to describe the person,"undeserving"...haish..hey noe wat?i tink we nid to settle dis stupid thing fast.i juz dun lyk to haf dis kind of thing in my mind..

soccer is fun..recently it has been the cure to my angers..lacking of skills in it readi.i tink i nidda put on my soccer boots whch has been collecting dust.my cure to stress nowadays is going for a long run alone n soccer! =) n fine,,i will start studying...hahaha..

laughter will always be by my side.

laughing is life to me..

never apart.

gonna miss my physical tortures by previous previous previous batch of specialist..hahaha

n most importantly,my one n only platoonmates n torture-mates..

n i neva ever thought that im gonna hate u this much..

when i used to love you so much...

hahahaha...life is unpredictable...

short post

2009-05-21T23:44:00.002+08:00

english-pass
malay-pass
literature-pass
e.math-fail
science(physic/chemistry)-fail
social studies-fail
geography-VR(fail)
principles of accounts-fail

so dats my MYE results.seriously,i do feel the heartcrushing moments lah..but i noe im gonna try my veri best for prelims n most importantly O level.nidda start studying smart..

i made up dis one quote to make syafeeqah feel better coz she seems so sad abt her results..
me:"okay,dis is like a sprint race okay.take it easy"
her:"ok yea."
me:"u see,we r now not even at the starting line.we r onli doin warm ups orite.our startin line is our prelims.ending line is O level results"
her:"yea,make sense"
me:(a sudden stress on my face when i get back my paper)"haiya..i dun care readi lah abt MYE all"
her:"Q,wat abt ur race?"
me:"yea..well im just im havin cramps during my warm up.n im juz gonna comment abt my cramps but im still gonna run for the race.all out!"
her:"hahhaha..yea."

u guys understand the meanings?try to figure it out if u dun.
ok im out for now.lots of things playing in my head..juz alot..tomorrow theres training..
lets see wat can b done...

wat the hey!

2009-05-19T15:33:00.002+08:00

today was another bright sun shiny day..woke up with an instance aroma of a dish..woohoo...it feels good when we woke up n to find dat theres food after going thru a starving night..
ate n watch dvd wif my siblings all..'an american hunting:based on a true story'...the movie was cool but full of twists..so yea..thinking of going for a run later..alone..hahaha..find peace..n healthy lifestyle yo..

ysterday,my younger brother trip on the living room carpet n hit his mouth oh the edge of the wooden chair...ouch!it hurts alot mayn...his front teeths was tilted n twisted inside..but due to his stong gums,it didnt fall out..bllod was dripping like alot...n they all started panicking..wat the hey..so cooled them off n help him..hold the ice pack n stuffs...he tear his lips.abt 1 cm..ouch again..blood wont stop coming out..so waited for daddy to come home n they bring him to the hospital..2 of his teeths was plucked out..n he nidded to go for operation actually coz one of his teeth break into half.leaving the remainders inside..but theres other options n yea,my mum didnt want him to go for op.small kid always haf a painful memories ryt...hahha..dats his then..

mayn..today is heaven of food day..taufiq juz brought home a tray of fruit tarts..my fav is the kiwi one..2 packs of styrofoams of oreo n choclate cheesecake.a box of kebab n a full box of sushi n also some other food...heavenly!! mus darling n eeza,if u all read dis part,dun jealous ah..hahahha...hey,its the veri same cheesecake at kak gerl's wedding..heehee...

hey sayang,if u got ani probs or wat the hey stress it is..dun give suspense uh..i reply ur msg readi then neva reply..then check2 u gt problems uh...if nid anithng,juz text me..anytime oso will be entertain..

life is full of deceives
death is full of truths
decide;truths or deceives.
sometimes living in deceives is the only
way which we want to live.
truths can be hurtful in some
circumstances but it teaches us how to
accept reality in life.
decide what you want in life

yay!

2009-05-17T23:56:00.002+08:00

MAN U UPHOLD THE GLORY!
gunners gun got choked!

yay!tmrw last paper..1 hour oni.from 830 to 930.then dismiss!how good is dat..tmrw's physics/chemistry..n best part is,its only MCQs....

wah...my nose crious shit like leaked tap...pathetic...tmrw stil must go skewl yo!must must must!

mayn!it feels good when man u won!n the best part is,lookin at those face of arsenal supporter lyk my dad n my sis...bring the newspaper to their face n point the headline..hahahha..add in their disaapointment since ysterday..n some other arsenal supporters still cant accept the fact dat they lose...hahaha...so long suckers!

so tmrw after paper still left unplanned...lets see wats the spontaneous plan we gonna make up...hahahah....sayonara earthlings!i love ya'll....

2009-05-15T20:34:00.002+08:00

laughter starts from history because we imagine something funny which had happen before and relates it to the incident occuring.so when we laugh,basically we are getting back to the past memories.

we will always get stuck with the past.

memories are memories;sweet bitter it is,it still affect the way we are now

today was today..TGIF..natural enjoyable day i guess..had physics n literature paper..physics was superb easy if i juz take the effort to memorise all the formulas mr morais told us to..my pure laziness..dangs!literature was midsummer night's dream..studied dat for like 1 year n 5 months already..questions needs alot of thinking..i juz love literature..it makes us widen up our mind to think further n deeper..they can evenn give u questions like:"conflicts.discuss"...n we can write an essay for like four pages full..weird ryt..so after dat,went to normal place..mommy mommy come and see ah..slacked and i did alot of talk cork wif my darling on the way to normal place..

up to date stuffs of peoples:
i love the ELLEN DEGNEREES show!effing rox..i love ellen!
eeza is obsessed with twilight n so on..
darling?she wants to eat sotong at old chang kee..

dreams

2009-05-14T22:28:00.003+08:00

finish each day and be done with it.you have done what you could;some blunders and absurdities have crept in;forget them as soon as you can.tomorrow is a new day;you shal begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense

well,theres no point getting all upset about the wrong things we've done in the past..coz theres nth much we can do about it.juz pray dat those things didnt re-occur in the present times.wats done is done...left it right bhind us,coz sometyms we juz nid to have a peek at it again to do things right...dun ever2 live depending on our past fully..it is just stepping stones whch will lead us to the other side of the destination..LEARN from mistake..the keyword is learn n not live...the world would not evolves exactly the way we want it to be...alot of things can just appear in your life without even a knock on the entrance door..learn to overcome those problems n dont let those problems overcome you..ever..god wont test us beyond ones ability..go on with life even theres a lot of spears thrown towards us..concentrate well on it,n you will be able to avoid it..
basically,theres no point in us to grieve or regret over what we've done..it have made us what we are right now..be it stronger or weaker..that is how life suppose to be..each and every day,first thing one should do is put on a smile...even if you dont mean it..just fake it for atleast 5 seconds n the sense of humor will naturally rise up..cheer your morning up so that the day will be worthwhile n no regrets...and do not rely on anyone except yourself..believe iin your own instincts..

ive been having this weird contagious prolong laughter recently....but then to think about the meaning of laughter;

to be continued in the next post......

mothers day 09

2009-05-11T18:26:00.002+08:00

RIBOT KEPEH!DATS ONI 1 FAMILY OF MINE EYH...MY BIG COMPLETE FAMILY...

THE THREE MOTHERS:MY 1ST SIS,MY MUM,MY 2ND SIS

mothers day celebrated last minute..yea..always lah last minute..n for the first tym,the whole family was there..my one big complete family...eh wait,,no lah...haiya..missed out nasha coz she was sleeping..haiya..so yeah,dats the amount of people living under one roof now..12 peeps yo..veri chaotic maynn...but i lyk!n many youngsters ... hahahha...n yea...dat is the faces of the pack of SATANS as bein mentioned in the previous post..we r the trouble makers yo...but the face all like decent ah...total opposites mayn...hahahha...so dats the update...

the other thang is,i dunnoe wat the hey is happening between SMIQA..hahhaha...dun understand wats the problem..n eeza today morning2 sms sayin shes sorie..dis gal ah...one of a kind random sia...hahhaha...haiya...watever it is,as long as we r still frens dats hell fine wif me..dis kindof of misunderstanding all lyk veri leceh ah..okay..take care ya'll...haf a great week ahead..miss ya'll...

hating needs oni a coward,

forgiveness needs a lot of courage

its all about u

2009-05-10T17:08:00.002+08:00

happy mothers dAy to all mothers...

to my mother:
u noe dat all of us love u ryt.yes..u r our biggest irritation but we stil love u..u may b our biggest enemy but u can also b our veri bestfren...we juz cant hate u dat long..coz u r our veri one n only mother..we cant find a replacement of u eventhou theres actualie millions of mothers out thr..u r juz one of a kind n u haf u veri own atitudes...hahahah...uve got the weirdest rule n sometyms u undrstands us too much...some rules whch other parents wont let their child do,u wud support us to do it...hahahha..ure weird u noe?but dats wat makes us loves u lot more..n we dun care if u wanna call us satans or wat coz we noe we r not good children after all...we r a pack of satans whch always makes u angry n even weep...but hey,sumtyms dis pack of satans can make u laugh lyk u neva laugh b4..u shud thank us for making u soo angry..atleats ur life didnt turns out to b veri boring ryt..each n evri day,there must b problems whch we will create for u...u always say u dun wanna care abt us animore but u will in a way appear again..hahhaha...veri kepo ah u..ive neva gotten soo frustrated to the max wif someone xcept u..its frustration n not anger..noe y?coz when we argue,im juz soo frustrated dat i cant throw vulgars at u n beat u...noe y??coz u r my mother n i love u n i still haf dat lil part of respect towards u..rmmbr dat..n oni u n dad haf hurt us soo much emotionally n physically...u juz throw ur vulgars n those damn werds at us freely..but we still love u...coz when we sit n tink abt the past,we cant repay how much sacrifice u haf made to bring up dis lil satans of urs..i dunoe wat makes u make the dcision to kip us all from the beginning...we r nth but problems as u can realise dat...u cud haf juz abandon us at some rubbish bin or give us to people or somethng but u chose to shower us wif dat iritatingness of urs n most imprtantly,ur unrepayable indirect love...dats y ure weird...n u noe we owaes iritates u back coz dats how our family jokes..but u sumtyms take it criousli..n we will laugh when u started to get angry..mayn..if i were to write about u n how we feel about u n the truth abt evrithng,it will be a hell lot of list..excluding the examples..easy said,we juz love u too much till u didnt realise dat much part...u oni realise dat obvious satanic part of ours but ure nt to blame coz maeb dats the most revealing side of ours..hahahha...we dun worth dat much for u...but havin a mother lyk u is so worth it..we wont promise u dat we will change to bcome some angels but we r juz gonna promise u dat we will try our best to hide dat wrong things we r doing...hahahha...noe y?coz we love u more than we love our life...u r irreplaceable i wud say...

i noe after typin dis message,i ,infact the rest of ur children wont show ani change but we noe dat we haf done lots of wrong thngs towards u n god..n we r still doin it..but hey,there comes a point of time when we will change..still in search of dat tym...juz b patient kay...if u can tolerate us dis long,a lil bit more of tym wont kill ryt..i believe dat hate will turn to love...we may hate u at some point of tym but dats wat makes us love u more...WE LOVE YOU!

before i were conceived,she wanted me
before i was born,she loved me
before i was seeing the world in an hour,she would die for me
this is the miracle of lifE.

exam week mayn!

2009-05-07T22:25:00.002+08:00

tooday was chemistry n POA paper..it was dificult but easy...understand?it was a dificult paper but its veri easy for me to juz write craps...mayn..i did study smart but evrithng juz clear off once the paper starts...but hey,juz take it easy ...hahaha...smile always n wats done is done..u cant go to the teacher n ask for the paper n change the answer ryt,..so yea...juz dun get demotivate or wat,,coz dis is not the end..its not even the startin ... juz prepare urself for the upcomin prelims n O or N level..dats the important part n strictly no-slacking-time..mid year dun affect ur results for O levels...it will oni affect ur mentality..so dun get so stressed up n give up now?no use...coz mid-year is nothing!well im soo happy bout it...

kay,,,im tired..im veri2 tired...superb tired..i can feel the tense in my whole body now... my days has been the same routine...wake up in the morning,,go to skewl,exams,finish,eat at canteen,go civics,study till nyt..then buy snacks n go home..home,bathe,eat my late dinner,use comp,sleep.n the routine repeats...juz lyk dat..but some days must go werk oso until 12 or 1 am lyk dat..then still got skewl..dis sat got literature seminar at raffles in the morning..then aft dat nidda rush back coz gotta werk..then monday no skewl but still nidda study..LIFE IS ALL ABOUT STUDYING!hahahahha...but studying is fun in a way..i enjoy studying..it is soo good.it can make u really stress but at the same tmy veri satisfied,proud,happy,n many more of urself..hahahha..i tink im talkin lyk one psycho here..oh yes..ive turn into one..

n im sick!how beautiful my life is going ryt..wow...im amazed nproud..ive got dis non stop flu until my frens are disturbing me for havin swine flu...n my sis gotten the flu too from me..n dat day kena sudden rashes on my thigh n it leaves red2 marks..sucks!n i just got a jab on my left arm..n its veri iritating coz my hand feels so heavy...feeling cold always but no fever...hahahah...so juz feeling pathetic..n my head spinnin most of the tym..but hey,try to chill n put on a smile always..n juz breakdown if u nid to eventhou it is so sudden n random..coz peeps wont mind..its understandable..n now im soo feeling heavy n strain on all parts of my body...n my kidney side are aching lyk olmost 24/7...hahha...no one noes how the heck i m freakin feeling now....but stil not givin up yet!ive chose to contiinue on dis kindof path n im still gonna continue walking on it till ive found the end of it,then i'll choose another path whch will lead me to whr i wanna be..eventhou the path is longer,so wat?dat will make me live longer ryt.n i will learn more...im gonna benefit from it..so no comments...

i feel lyk talkin lots of stupid but funni thngs whch can make me laugh out loud n i wanna sing out loud to a nice melody n i wanna cry my heart out to a veri2 sad story i wanna get veri2 freakin angry n fired up so i could shout out loud n let evrithng out n i wanna get into a fight so dat i could bash up the person real hard till it bleeds n die of a terrible death n i wanna meet someone who is perfect in my eyes(anione even as my fren) so i could love him or her the whole of my heart out..

im off..sitting for e math n social studies papers tomorrow...

didnt go skewl,but went out study

2009-05-05T23:57:00.002+08:00

today was another typical absent from skewl day...alarm clock rang,snooze it 3 to 4 tyms n finally off it..mayn..my kidney hurts n my head spinning n my nose clogging..feel soo pathetic..yesterday when comin back from northpoint,i was feeling sicko readi...when mus n eeza left,guess how long i stayed in frnt of the 7 11...i sat thr for lyk 30 mins..doin nth..coz i was superb tired n nt feelin good mayn...back to today...woke up n eat n as usual,this chit chatty siblings will gossip2..hahahah...soo talk2..then evrione make plans on their own..i plan to study...*WOW....*called mus to ask her n blah blah blah..she cnnt make it..so ask eeza..at ferst she dun wan..then aftr a while,she called me..so plan a veri simple one..then bathe n all,went out..drop by to pizza hut a while to get my typhoid letter..then took 969 to wdlnds intrchg...met her thr...went to civics..got seats n juz startin on my english when suddenly,eeza suppose to find fafa..fafa so called "missing"..havnt reach home yet..so we pack our stuffs n go find fafa ard causeway point..then eeza dad found her readi..hahhaha...funni lah..soo we bought dounuts n drinks n back to civics..dis tym we studied criousli..no play2 one...im kindof proud of myself actually...we studied till 9 pm?hahaha..then library wanna close..so make our way to another dounut n took bus to go back home!met my sister,bought food at NP..n home!parents out..all youngsters in!evrione crowd in the living room to watch jihan..hahahah...today was rated fun!

REMINDER TO Q:TOMORROW STARTS MID YEAR EXAM!
NO MRE PONTENG2 FOR NO REASON HOR!DO UR BEST N FAIL ONI FEW SUBJECTS TAU!

BRIGHTER NOTE:GO HOME EARLY!N I WILL START TO STUDY...GOOD GAL OTW!

happy belated!

2009-05-04T21:14:00.003+08:00

happy belated 18th burfdae my dear nabilah!!!

mayn,i hate dis stm thang...i totally lyk totally forgot its her burfdae ysterdae..wth?!feel so damn wrong n guilty sia..she is lyk a sister,best fren,n watever i can describe as goodness...she will always b there if i nidded someone..mayn i love her lots!n i miss her too!u r criousli missed babe!theres juz lots of thangs she haf done whch i will owaes rmmbr n i will thank her for dat...hey,wish u all the best hor dearest..n last long wif *insert name here*...hahahaha.. dcide wisely for evrithng u wanna do..haf a happy great marvelous fantastic miracle magical undescribable year ahead..hpe u r doin well in poly now..we shall meet up one day n update each other..wait for my pay..i'll treat u to sumthng okay..i wanna a date wif u!(dat sounded wrong?later he jealous ah...)hahahah..hu cares..n i swear i'll updtae ur birth date in my organizer all so i wont ever2forget it...ever...i love you dearest n i miss you heaven lots!

wats done has to be left,

wats undone has to be made right.

cuts!

2009-05-02T02:44:00.002+08:00

im soo tired...
phew..nyce to b home when we're tired..hahahha...juz reached home juz now ard 1am plus...today nt dat much werk lah but still alot...holiday...wat do u xpect..ive got ard 5 small cuts on both of my hands..kena the oven lah,papercut lah..haiaya..n ive got a heroic hand!!!thnx to NCC from the previous2 seniors hu torture us push ups under the hot sun..my hands gt no feelings to hotness readi...hahahah...so today was rated as okay...

tym check 2 48am..juz finished havin dis convo on msn wif dis unknown group of peeps..hahah...they made me join their convo..so juz talk along uh...they are crazy people hu talk craps but gerek uh..so now im off ... those dreams are calling me ryt now..

its holiday!

2009-05-01T17:08:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR VALE!!!

he turns 41 today..hahah..gosh,he is the best teacher i ever had.."dun trouble trouble till trouble troubles u"..dat is his quote..hahaha...so ysterday,when POA lesson starts,me n arun went to get the cake from General Office..hahah..then we set the candles all n light it up on the 4th floor ryt outside the POA class...went in n evrione starts to sing a burfday song for him.hahha..its all planned...but he dunnoe..he stoned ..hahahah...then while we do our thngs,he cut the cake n distribute to all of us..n evrione gt a choclate whch faiz brought..hahahha..we can say he is happy mayn,..we r his favrite class mah...so aftr dat the day went on as per normal..fun lah,..got chemistry test.i do 6 MCQs n the last page,n then ZZZzzzzz till the tym ends..n yay!no srp!but nidda do math test..for a while..then saw dina waitin for emie..so i sat wif her..then my syg came..had a good laughin tym wif them..hahah..juniors...pig sux!i gt to escape from writing the 100 lines..Anti-Pig Club!bcoz of the stupid pig alot of people kena 1 hour dtention n write 100 lines..stupid pig..curse u!so went home..bathe change msn-ed a while..off to werk!

ysterday was superb bz..until system breakdown..wah..jia lat..alot of orders..shit mayn..no slackin tym..all the way bz to the max..reach home nearly 1am..very tiring..haiya..n later at 6 must go werk again..summore today public holiday..mati mati,tentu mati..hahhaha...endure Q...do it for O level mayn!!cmon2 we can see the sign....hahaha...so im running late..adios!

continue uh

2009-04-28T19:28:00.004+08:00

sunrise.....dat is the last pic i took for our 2 day 1 nyt "outing".@ yishun dam the seletar there..

me n kak gerl nth to do..so we use the solid fuel put on 6 holes..since the others slept readi.

them sleepin:hakim,bella,fiq,kak gerl,fasha(in the middle)

under void deck waiting for the door to open whch it did not..so we take stupid pics..
me n kak gerl...muker pecah sia tk make up...hahahx..

at sentosa otw home wif our damp clothes...

bear gerl adeq

picture of the day sia...siblings love...

xiao!!!

muker pecah siol!

my fasha syang n the the mummy!

shes my loveable bitch!

dats the additional pics for our outing whch turns out to b somethng else..hahaha...really had fun..atlast,we get to go home..n dats oni when my daddy goes to werk,n my mum sleepin..so we juz mcm sardin potato knock on the door n buat muke tk bersalah langsong n ask our sis open the door..hahhaha...criously act as if nth happen..mcm kite baru balek dari camping gitu..hahahha..tunggu pintu bukak sampai 2 pagi siol..saket jiwer..atlast,we dcide to go mcp buy snacks n drinks,then headed to woodlands loop to unload thngs n then went to yishun dam...slack ard..then the rest started sleepin one by one..last2,i oso sleep but ard 6 am.then wake up at 7 15 lyk dat..pack up,home!went in,no tym to change,we juz landed n action good say we wanna go skewl,but then eyes all closing readii,so...bomb!we slept till late aftrnn...wake up,wash up,eat,use comp.n sms-ing my syg..hahaha...kesian she walk ard wif the choclate then i neva come..wth..i promise i come okay tmrw..syg u!hahaha...2 days of no skewl,wasted lots of things readi..mid-year-exam next week sia...hahahha..(Q mcm paham siak)...kay,now i wan go badoq..sayonara!

for every happy moments, will end up wif something else..

but fcuk!we had fun n we suffer together after dat..i love them mayn!

jiwer siols!