today is juz soo perfect!
mixture of fun n fury...

start wif the fine part..it was a bright sunny mornin n i woke up at 7 n on tym on target bathe slowly..n even haf tym to surf the net n eat ferst..cool ryt..so 8 45am i went out of house..obviously i was late..soo juz on tym for PE..played softball n it went veri fun..then chemistry was oso ok..math was fun oso..then recess..fun oso...then MT veri relax..coz i gt do my hw!heehee...gd gal lah dier..aftr dat CE,,went to comp lab..do the national quiz or wat..n done!*wide smiles*

so,met the other specs outside sea room..n went to canteen..was hepy for the whole tym mayn..but when sumthng happen,it all started..my part a's kip askin me if gt trainin or not coz they say usm say dun go for ani trainins dat ur specialist inform u all except me..wth?wtf?got pissed by dat..but i try kip it coool coz it was small matters..

cut short story...the sir come n blah blah blah,,so made a deal,i hold the cadets back for a while coz nid to settle sumthng,,,n i soo kind readi giv them stand under the shade lagi..i gt brains lah..then dis m***** fckin idiot son of a b**** come from the gym corridor n shout my fckin full rank n name loudly..i was lyk wtf?
(summarise of wat happen,got more stuffs actually)
Son Of A Bitch:wad is my instruction last week!(shouting?)
me:no trainin,so?(talking tone)
SOAB:then wat r they doin here?!
me:i wanna talk to them lah..my part wat...
SOAB:i giv u 5 mins !(shouting mayn!)
me:eh my problem uh..wan talk oso nid tymin uhh ***^*&874%%%^%&^&&&%^&%&
SOAB:i giv u 5 mins,faster!
me:i wanna talk so can u lyk go away n get lost..?!
SOAB:no!
me:eh fcuk u lah cibai go die lah sial g mampos lah pukimak palabuto!
SOAB:faster i giv 5 mins!
me:i say go away u moderphucker!
SOAB:PART A,I WAN U ALL TO GO HOME NOW!
me:no!u all stay.im ur PS!listen to me..(so they all stay)
SOAB:hu bigger rank now?
me:fcuk u lah!now u wan talk abt rank ah cibai!tink u soo big fcuk uh!?
me:(cursin all the way n sudenly my bad werds vocab bcome so full..n i was shoutin to the max)
SOAB:IS IT MY UNIT OR UR UNIT?!(ive gt crious problems wif dis kindof question mayn!)
me:fine uh,its ur unit ryt?then u can go n die n control dis unit on ur fckin own!dun ever2 ask ani specs for help!u control alone lah maderphucker!pukimak!(throwin a pen n a paper whch im holdin to him)
SOAB:(stone for a while)
me:(tellin my part a)aftr dis,dun listen to me..listen to ur fckin USM!
me:pU***** pnye anak!anak haram!musibat btol!nab***!ci***!(n i kip cursin more of my cursin language..shoutin to the max)
SOAB:(walk off mcm big fcuk)(n i was continuing cursing him)
me:aku sumpah kau tgh balek,kene langgar lori mampos tros lah sial!pegi mampos lah sial!


mayn my whole body was shakin to the max sia..tangan aku ringan to the max...my hand was shakin daymn obviously smpai faiza was lyk"Q!chill2...relax babe!"coz i was freakin changed person...not the nnormal2 hepy Q!n mayn i was in my own anger werld until the ppl ard me lyk the teachers juz were invisble..i dun even realise n dun even care abt them ard..ms sor n the NPCC ma'am lyk jaws open n lookin...n hell lots of ppl was thr..the netballers all...n dian told me alot of ppl from the canteen stand up n went near the courtyard to look wat was happenin..coz criously i tell u uh,i was lyk shouting wif 1 kind of voice lyk sumone kena posess siia..veri loud summore..n the auntie yg tknk bukak pintu room,come to me n was lyk,
auntie:wat happen juz now?he fight wif u uh?
me:dunnoe lah auntie..he giler uh..
auntie:i was veri scared u noe..i at 2nd floor then hear ppl shout2..my heart beat veri fast
me:sorie.then he wan fight wif me,i must fight back uh.he tink he boy i scared uh?
auntie:correct2...

hahahaha..auntie pon agree ngan aku lah sey!soo,lots of ppl ask me wat happen lah,..soo i dcided to play soccer ryt aftr the fight.gd way to cool, down..coz i get to run n kick a ball lyk on tym on target..veri satisfyin uh,,eventhou its daymn hot,we juz play loh..soo,,slack ard wif the guys..then ard 6 plus,went to econs(porn block)..slack till 8..talk abt the past n some random lame stuffs..hahahha..sittin wif them n hear their nonsense veri fun uh!they somehow cheer me up again!n weve gt plans comin in the future mayn!otw...ok,aku maseh tk puas dgn kau!mau langgar aku lagi?lai lah!nxt tym,aku tk kasi kau lepas kalau aku tk jentek kau eh..tc siot big fcuk maderphucker!


hAPPY 16TH ADVANCE BIRTHDAY FAIZ BIN HUSSAIN!
n syg,my choclate on monday kay?promise eh..i syg u!hahahx!

okay im so freakin tired now but bcoz i cant miss one day witout internet,im bloggin ryt now..tym check,12 34am..whoa nyce number uh..juz came back home from werk..daymn,i was sleepy sia...n my heels hurt,...gd thang skewl start later tmrw..atleast can plus ,minus the duration for my sleepin..hmm..so,i wanna go skewl tmrw..n i wan to go..*self motivation*
haiya..actually its bcoz ive promised wif the principal dat i will come evriday..n its a deal...if i wan his help,my attendance nids to b improve..so yea,basically,i can b seen goin to skewl evriday recently..


so now,my schedule veri easy..go to skewl,if gt srp,i'll go..until 4 lyk dat..come home,sleep or either bathe n dress up for werk..dats all..or either hang out wif frens aftr skewl..hmm..werkin was nt dat bad..lots to learn n memorise..but thnx to those frenly kakaks2...i pull thru..yay!i usually set off from thr at ard 12am..so blah blah blah reacch home,SLEEP! n yea juz now the wind was veri veri veri frweakin strong!we were veri scared if it was a naturaal disaster or wat*touch wood*..so they push all their bikes in coz some bikes fall due to the wind.gosh!so yadah yadah yadah,sit ard wif them for a while talk2 then home!i gt skewl babe tmrw!so gd nyt!

so basically eeza did dis survey in her blog n ask me read it..
so i was the no 3..so here goes the questiion n answer:

What is the best thing about 3?- Everything in here ii suqer ! Mostly is when ii talk cork with her then she frustrated later she will try to make me frustrated nnd ii will have to say, 0KAY Q .Later she shut up . Nyahahhahahha ! iis uqer see her binget face . heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~ Condemned her is really serious shit condemn want . That whut friends are for . right Q ?! Hhaaaaa !



When have you lied to 3?- Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .. . Cant remember luh . Rarely lie to her lah . Peng cyter got ah . Counted ah ? Heh .


Have you ever physically hurt 3?- Straight yes ! Like just now only ! ii was physically abused more rabaaaq siol ! Qena squashed lah whut lah . Haiyoh !


okay..ferst of all..dis fren of myne called nur azizah bte shamsuddin aka eeza,she lurves to iritate me to the max!!! yeaa,we will owaes iritate each other back until she say "okay q".then i will lyk,watever..weird ah she..she lyk to see my binget face..urgh!!!but i do enjoy it when we start to talk cork..well,imma professional cork talker ryt?i noe..n we do haf heart to heart talk noe..dats the oni part when we do talk lyk serious..hahah..if not uh,we talk mcm kite peh werld..sumtyms people may tink we r arguing or wat..hahaha..ouh,so u RARELY lie uh,peng crite tu defination die ape?menipu jgk kan?haaha..but noe wat?u owaes tell me the truth when u lie..rmmbr the mp3 part?i guess u dun rmmbr oso...ok the last question,no comment..we both got physically hurt each other b4 uh..dun say no..rmmber dat tym when we wan go NUH then i scratch u then u pinch me the small2 one?wah,n we were lyk continuing slapping each other..even inside the visitors waiting room..hahah..n the squashing part uh..its mus'd idea uh..i juz carry it out by order.join in the fun je..

friday:
trainin bcame a meetinun it meetin whch dont looks lyk a unit meetin..so blah blah blah..neva go skewl on friday but come down for the meetin..yadah yadah yadah..aftr dat go lepak at the porn block(term used by the sea gals)..but actualy its near econs..so sit ard wif brian n riyan..we had our chit chattin session..then ard 7 40 lyk dat we chiao..took the bus.n homie..met yane in the bus!long tym no see uhr babe..hhahah..miss u babe!


saturday:
usual stuffs..juz dat mum n dad nt in gd terms..so mum went out..then followed by kak bella then me.n my dad pissed off,he oso went out..yadah yadah yadah,,,came home,n sumthng happen..kak gerl fall sick.juz the exact same thang whch happen to kak bella..but her case is more lyk kene rasok..hahah..felt sad for her.but ive been next to her all while lyk wat i did for kak bella.


sunday:
nth much..went out..n im havin dis late serving of food curse!wtf!2 days straight i haf dis problem of orderin food but it was nt bein served in the duration of 1 hour..so i cancelled my order on both days..jia lat uhr!


monday:today!!!!
went to skewl but late..my father skewl hor..so blah blah blah..skewl was skewl..fun lah..gt 4 free periods coz mr row neva come...yay!slack alot in skewl today..chemistry gt practical..then MT...=.=" i totally flunk my peribahase test..hahaha..n i fckin hell heck care wif it readi..fail fail lor.so out of the 13 or 12 questions,i oni write down 3 answer n tu pon lyk veri the hentam..so yea..n hey,ive gt 12/12 fo my POA test..but open book uh..but hello,nt all gt full mark kay..im proud..n durin MT,cikgu hartini lyk wah,,pissed me off?ferst gimme the sarcastic stare of askin the whole class abt passin marks for the peribahase test n next is coz of my FINGERNAILS yg mcm KUNTILANAK...haiya..aku makan pakai fork n spoon,so?haizz.
n guess wat?

mr faizal n mr vale came to my house today!when i was in skewl..they wanna check it out y i neva come skewl lyk hell lots of days..n yea..hhahahaha..i was freakin shocked n mr vale was shocked oso..coz he doesnt even noe dat he was goin to my house..he tot whch student..n turns out to b me.hahahso yea..i guess my mum told them evrithng..about dis n dat...EVRITHING...n when mr vale saw me in skewl,he was lyk telllin me how shock he is when he get to noe dat he was standin at my doorstep..n he said he gonna talk to me tomorrow coz he tinks they nidda come out wif some solutions to my problem..whch i dunnoe wat the heck..so yea..juz wait lor..yea n its true,i dun show my problems in skewl..coz my smile n laughter is the best seal to all dat until u dun believe it ryt..yeA...aftr skewl,went to wak ima crib to mit fidi n adek..they r qute litle earthlings!then went to CP..bought clips..then homie..okay..i lyk it dis way..
living on wat i believe is right...

thank you for the company till here,
frens...

go,go,go,go,go go shorty...its ur burfdae..we gonna party lyk its ur burfdae..


thnxfor all the wishes n presents hor...touch me alot for wat u all done..so let me list down those wishes ive got startin from the ferst to the last person...

1)mus darling!-'happy birthday darling!heeee. cheh daa sixteen seyy. hha. kay babe,may all eur dreams come true aye! must not quit squ tau! :D sayanggg qawww! heee..nitex'(by sms at 12am sharp)

n she wrote an essay in my new organiser whch syai bought for me..veri swit essay i shud say..n she bought me a big pencil box whch gt dis phrase big2,"DO I LOOK LIKE I FREAKING CARE?MYUK.WHAT ATTITUDE" thnx alot babe for tryin to make me haf a fun n swit day today..u did try to make me njoy my day soo much...n a date in the library aftr skewl..hahaha...


2)syai!-"happy bdae q! ahah .wish u all the best in everything :D"(sms by 12am)
he bought me the veri useful organiser!thnx alot..n thnx for teaching me play the song on piano today!


3)kak gern!-"haf a swit 16 burfdae on the 16th of april..n bla bla bla..."
i forgot the rest of the line coz she called me..n i was lyk erm yea okay thnx..

4)atieq-"Q!HAPPY BIRTHDAY!chey dah 16 sey.haha kay happy2 slalu kay,rite.take care.ps,aku rindu kau lar giler.heheh

5)amirul-by facebook

6)fanaa-by facebook..she had the same birth date as me lah sey!

7 )nabilah!-"happy birthday q..have fun k..may ur sis get well soon.."

8)eeza!-she wrote dis long letter n she gave me a bear n perfume.i lyk..thnx alot!i love the bear...n the letter..

9)eyka!-wished n hug

10)iqa!
11)haikal!
12)shaykh!
13)irni!
14)mr vale!-he missed me..hahaha...
15)haziq!
16)sandi!-kay she did sumthng.n dat is,,sang for me birthday song again n again n again..until the emath class all sing for me..so touched!thnx sandi!
17)cheryl!
18)syafiq!
19)mrs raj!
20)mairah!
21)ms sor!
22)lee kuan!
23)amalina!
24)amir!
25)kak bella!
26)minami
27)izmil!-promise uh blanje me nxt week!
28)kamar!
29)kak siti!
30)riyan!
31)brian!
32)fhareha syg!-"nur quraisha bte ridwan! happy birthdae syg! tady i wana wish you personally bt tady i call out to u ,u tk dgr.tskk, so yeah,da besar lah dierh!hehe!and laugh alwaes yeahh!loveyou syg!

33)fit!

so dats basically for now..i stil feel kindof hepy today..those ppl ard me makes my day...eeza!!!u make me heartbrokening!talk to u otp ah,sunggoh lah saket jiwer..thnx once again for evrithng peeps..
see,if i neva plan for the nxt day,i would nt b disappointed ..evriday is a mystery..n i will folow the flow.it feels great...sayonara peeps..enjoy ur day!mus ngan syai,pelan pelan kayoh beca ehk..
kay chiao!

my sis back home today..she cn walk now,but lyk robot..hahha..so yea..i sleep mcm babi btol..from ard 2am to 2pm..huhu..cool kan...i criously repay my sleepless nyt for the past 4 days..so woke up n then clear my everlasting messy bed.then wash the toilet,bathe,makan...then lepak wif kak gerl under voidies for a while..talk2 a while..hahha..then go home,we on song,abeh crazy sendiri..fun u noe..then blah blah blah,talk otp wif mus..for an hour babe..naek panas tlinge aku..yea,i miss her,she miss me...so yea,gonna mitt her ferst thing in the mornin..n i promise her i gonna go skewl tmrw..if i paitao,we'll break those few years of fs..so gonna mit smia at McD at 7 15am tmrw... talk to her abt some things,n i noe u really wan me to continue..i see ferst uh babe..ii promise i wont abandon u kay......


n guess wat,tmrw is my birthday..yup..abt 1/2 hr tym..n i onli remmbr it in the aftrnn when kak gerl talk abt someones gttin older tmrw..then it hits me lyk *bam!
but stil not lookin forward to it..nths new bout burfdaes..it simply brings u nearer to ur death..so tmrw gonna make my dcision whether im stayin or quitin skewl..n if im stayin,i nid to find the 90 bucks..dangs!but im juz gonna folow the flow for my upcomin days..nt plannin more..watever gonna happen,happens..so yea dats it...

mari semue masok hsptl ramai2...so basically,kak bella,wak azen,jeng,zul's mum,the skewl councillor family member still sittin on those white bedsheet n eating tasteless food..mcm admitted week sia...watever it is get well soon uh eh..


well,my week,oni tuesday i go skewl,dat one oso mark absent coz i damn late n neva report to office..all the way from tue till now evriday relek pat hsptl..wif my sis..then at nyt oso cnnt sleep so neva sleep dat much..lyk 1 hour one day..crious shit sia..mate da terbiase tk tido..on fri went tag along wif eeza to NUH to visit wak azen..then visit jeng skali..n talkin abt him oso..today his burfday!maken bnyk plak list april babies ehk..cool kepeh..the fun thng abt the week is,i cn on tym on target go aniwhr..my house lyk hotel readi if i come home oso a while oni..or sleep oni..then mornin go out or neva come home oso...gerek2..n i now havin arguements wif my mum as usual..so she kindof heck care wif me...lagi lah aku suker..

kay i miss my classmates..6 ari tk jumpe lyk veri weird lykdat...ok im doone...
mus darling,relax kay,i wont abandon u...
eeza triplet,u dun abandon me uh...
fhareha syg,same oso to u..i will anitym mit u if u wan to..
to the others,i m missing all of u...veri much...

i didnt go skewl again today..coz to me,my family is my ferst priority...4 tym straight i was marked absent..




wat happen ysterday was dat,my closest sis,bella,got sick..n nt normal kindof sick..she was lyk not movin..lyk coma or paralyse lyk dat..daymn it freaks all of us out.my mum n other sis started cryin..i was abt to but i cntrol it to the max...daymn it..those held up tears make me stronger to go thru the whole nyt n mornin..n i oni shed A tear..onli one..n dats it..coz i noe ive gt to b strong..n nths gonna happen to her..so since im the oni one hu cn cntrol myself,i was the one who was wif her thruout the whole thang..mum called the ambulance n she was brought to the a &e dpt at SGH..n it was lyk 12 plus to 1 am..waited so freakin long..n neva sleep n its effing cold to the max..so lonely sia..n my mum wanna start arguement wif me at thr..wtf..kat situ jgk kite had a smal sarcastic arguement n i we dun talk to each other again..so ard4 plus am she gt transferred to transit ward..kindof temporary ward...so i sat thr then my mum went home..so i was left thr alone wif my sis..but u dun care coz i love her to the earths core!i juz cant leave her alone thr..i wanna owaes b thr next to her,to hold her hand when shes in pain,to cover her wif blanket when shes cold n do lift her up wif watever energy's left in me juz to make her comfortable or if she wanna sit..coz dats the tym i tink i cn repay all the things she haf done for me..bt its stil nt enuf..





daymn i was freakin sad abt dis thang.if anione was in my shoe,u would feel the same..imagine if u go thru dis on the day itself..i woke up n we planned to go skewl late together..so we took our SWEET tym to eat togoether..n dat is sumthng unusual,then she went to the supermarket to buy her frens snacks n i meet up wif her at McD NP .then we sit for a while, then she bought a meal for her fren..then she teman me until busstop to take bus then she go..n she bought me snack n a bottle of drink..n earli in the mornin b4 she left home in the room,she told me she had surprise for me when i come back from skewl.so i was lyk yea2..then she topup for me my prepaid in the mornin summore..n we were havin sucha gd tym in the morning..jokin n bonding..sumthing unusual olso..so when i come back home whch is ard 6 plus,she was nt home..she oreadi went to werk..so do usual stff..then phone rang,i pick up,hear her voice veri weak readi..i ask my dad fetch her from werk..when saw her reach home ah..criously veri *heartcrash*..she veri2 weak..then my father suport her to the room.then when she lie down,she start bein so stiff n veri2 cold..lyk u noe,sumone gonna d**(touchwood)..n her eyes stare one spot oni..n she can talk..WTF??so blah blah blah..then my father gave me a box,its a handphone..dat was the surprise she meant..n she cant hand it to me personally..it is for my advance bdae present..i was freakin touched by it n i wanna shed tears but i held it up..





at the hsptl my mum told me how she was freakin happy n xcited to gimme the hp..she told her dat im gonna b veri hepy n she is so happy abt dat..n dat was b4 she went to werk..n recently on oone of the days,she came home n hugged kissed my mum n ask for forgiveness.n she cried.so i go investigate..then she say she had a strange feeling abt death..so explain to me how the hell we r not freaked out about her condition...i juz pray dat she will get well SOON..shes the one n only sister who showed n give me alot of care n love..she will sacrifice anithng juz for me..i juz love her soo much ..how i wish i was the one havin all those pain..coz shes the best among all of us..n i would rather take dat place n take her pain away..i deserve it way much than her..she even werk so hard juz to gimme the comfortibility in life dat my parents cant gimme now.i owe her too much..i feel lyk a burden to her..i juz got alot to tell her how much i love her n how thankful i m towards her...

those crazy tyms..hahahha..get well soon my dear sis..

holding our tears can be veri dificult but atleast it makes us stronger..

tym check:8 41am....
n im still at home..yea..i woke up at 5 50 readi,smngt to the max pack my bag..then i sleep.wake up at 6 plus..tyming da swee2..then my father havnt wake up..so obviously da lmbt..so da lambat,lambat kan skali..i woke my sis up,ask her if she go skewl or not..she oso late readi..so we sardin potato amek pinggan,sendok nasik,amek ikan gorng dgn kua kari,saapp.....badok ah ape lagi..da ade bnyk tym..so yea,we both haf the same reason...so we plannin wat tym to go out,wat to do in the meanwhile at home..da mkn,she go bathe,i jage the baby a while...n now on comp ah ape lagi..later then i go out..my mother oso dunnoe wat to say readi,she tell us anithng we answer,she dun bother to pick up the phone when the skewl calls..hahaha..wah i tink dat skewl my father skewl uh.must change ahmad ibrahim n naval base to Ridwan Aman Secondary School uh..style peh eh...suspect kuat dtention tkya g sua..me n my sis waiting for suspension so we gt a reason to nt go skewl..hahahahha...my parents oso dunnoe wat to say to alll of us..satu2 prangai,,,bole saket jantong...k im done..will update bout skkewl at nyt uh..


well,at least i did go skewl ryt..not as bad as absenting..one step at a tym...

im superbly tired now..feels lyk its sucha long skewl day..haiyo...came skewl earli coz gt free ride from hakim..thnx yo!so blah blah blah..go assembly late coz wan tie hair all..hahaha..i come then straight say out loud,"mrs heng i gt come ah today!" hahahha..n she looks so hepy sia..wth..so skewl was skewl..fun but veri the sleepy to the max...but stil remains awake uh...then skewl ends..gt ncc sea meetin for awhile..blah blah blah..SRP gt test...but evrione lyk shariin answer readi..so done!then met eeza n mairah..walk till bustop then eeza went home folowed by mairah..me n mus go grace wif amir n yazid...met achap thr..aftr eatin,we go sum bllk sit down for a while...as usual wif free transport...then ard 6 plus amir n achap sent the two of us...mus stop at mrt then we continue journey to near my house...save money uh..so thnx yo guys!n now my leg superb hurtin now..i dunnoe y...later wan buy the choclate...hahhaha...gosh!i havent iron my no.3....daymn!


tmrw is ACHIEVEMENT DAY...goin as GOH for the parade...so yea!tmrw skewl half dae..then achievement day cnfirm2 abes mlm nyer..hahahaha..so,kite enjoy!n next week thrsday gt affirmation ceremony at skewl!so,knfirm tiring one...